Firecrackers!
Went to malaysia for qingming today. had to wake up really early to reach the graveyard by 7am. as usual, i just stood by the side while the rest paid respects to my grandma and great grandma. no joss sticks for me..

well.. though i din really participate in the qingming, i did join in the firecracker lighting. my uncle sold firecrackers together with ba kwa during cny and he still had a lot of them left so he brought them along. and wow... it was fun! ok although i've never seen firecrackers live since we live in safe singapore, i wasn't too enthusiastic initially. didn't know if it was safe. heard of all the stories of ppl getting burnt and severly injured.

but dad took all the firecrackers, lined them up and kept lighted them one after another. wow.. even dad is having fun! never seen this side of him, moving round shooting the firecrackers into the sky like he's like reliving his childhood.

so i crept up apprehensively took the joss stick and tried lighting the wick. after many tries, 'boom!' the black rocket shot to the sky, reached its peak and ended its run with an even louder explosion. totally impressed! i'm actually getting first hand experience playing with firecrackers... occasionally, the rocket got stuck and exploded in the ground, giving off a shockwave that sent your skin rippling. scary... my bro almost killed someone too when his lighted rocket fell parallel to the ground. fortunately, it shot nobody but the explosion left a hole in my great grandma's grave!!!! so much for resting in peace. besides these mini black and red rockets, there was also the deafening long cny type red firecrackers hung from the tree.

wonder why everyone lights firecrackers during qingming? is there any significance? i don't know.. but i sure had fun playing with them!

Boeing Boeing
Great performance! I was highly entertained by the fast paced humorous play. it was a play about this man who lives a polygamous life, engaged to 3 beautiful air stewardess without each knowing the existence of the others. so as you would have guessed, the entire story revolves on how the man, bernard, keeps the fiancees from meeting one another. what i love most about the play was the different accents by ms SIA, ms JAL, ms CATHAY and the filipino maid. they were so authentic that they truly showed the cute manner a hong konger, a japanese, a singaporean and a filipino would speak english. jianhong and i liked the japanese and hong konger. but bridge could relate more to the singaporean cos it's so her!!! at the end of it, i'd say paying 30 bucks to be left in perpetual stitches was definitely worth it! highly recommended if u can even get tickets cos they're almost sold out!!!

so the rest of the time, just chit chatting with the 2. uninhibited crapping like in cambodia! ok la... maybe with some inhibition. ya anyway, i don't mind having another one soon. :) window shopping at raffles city was an eye opener. i've to say it's becoming my fav hangout place. wonder why i go orchard so often and totally neglected such a gem. thanks for the great time!

i got out of my room today!
went window shopping with cow.
the bad thing about window shopping is, i see so many nice things and i get infected by materialitis.
just wanna get all of them. but i won't. i can't. won't let myself succumb to the disease. i'll fight to the end.
well.. maybe i'll just succumb to the top man tie first? hahaha... shit. that must be the last n only manifesting symptom.
can't let the other symptoms emerge.

oh man... i'm piling on the calories! ate so much today, and all sinful food. went to eat my fav takopachi again! i could eat takopachi everyday and not get tired... hahaha.. went to relive sec n jc school day memories by eating the taka japanese fried egg noodles. gotta say it was terrible! definitely not worth the 3 bucks. just one bad experience and you'll just wanna swear off it. so never again to eat fried jap egg noodles. oh remember i used to eat okonomiyaki at the taka food court. jap cabbage pizza. loved it! sad it's no longer there. anyone knows where to get cheap okonomiyaki?

kerliang> well that's cos everyone's irritatingly humble. well if you don't believe how sure i am, you can find me in the library tmr morn :)

lynn>windsurfing? wait til i lose my blubber first la. so embarassing to surf topless with a permanent life buoy round your waist. u do solo strolls? i think i'm the only one who does that. u girls can't even have a meal or go to the toilet alone.. how do u do solo strolls?

manny>peter russell? sure.. just get your ipod or thumbdrive and plug it into my ibook. u'll def laugh your ass off! actually ryan seems the same height as seth? just that maybe marissa is a lil taller than him. oh summer is really short so seth looks taller. finished season 1 already! feel so lost now..

okie time for an hour and half of night jogging now... lose the buoy!

slept at four watching oc and i'm still not done.
oh man... their life is so exciting and complicated that it is as tempting as a rollercoaster ride. don't i wanna have a taste of their life? ya just be seth or ryan for a day or two. with cool parents (i think sandy's the coolest dad ever!), great wardrobe of clothes, huge mansion, sea view, a pool house, huge cars, hot friends and own room. yea... it can only be a dream. a wild one.

post-exam activities:
day 1
-pigging out at fratello's (staff club), had oxtail stew... wasn't the best... but any oxtail stew is better than no oxtail stew.
-having jasper, yauhong, renjun and jirong in my room watching the funny peter russell (he's hilarious! get the video from us and u'll know what i mean), the oc and tak giu video.
-rest of the night watching oc season 1 on my own

day 2
-solo stroll in orchard doing some self reflection
-borrowed books from orchard library
-ate lots of food which i haven't eaten in a while like my fav prawn takopachi! love the crunchy prawn and chewy inside
-idled my time away at starbucks, reading robin cook's seizure over a aromatic mug of latte and a fabulous bag of kettle chips
-decided to start studying this weekend cos vivas are next week!
-guess i'll be staying in my same room in pgp next sem with the allocation of my 3rd choice of student accommodation
-dunno if i got cheated or what... i got approached by this plump, limping, underdressed lady in outside lido claiming she has a diabetic mum and she has got no job. she needs money to buy porridge for her brother and mum. gave her 5 bucks but she requested for 8. so i just gave her 10. saw her getting money from 2 other guys later too. well i gave her money out of goodwill. whether she's a cheat or victim of circumstances, may God bless her.

day3
-no plans! but think i should stop being a social recluse and hang out with ppl... think i'll feel better this way
so before i start muggin this weekend... i'm free for any jioing, dating, eating, exercising on fri!

say hello to 2nd round of studying...
sigh...

This is it! God... please calm my nerves tmr. Help me remember all that i've studied. All the best everyone!

Do Your Part
Calling everyone to donate caffeine to Dehan. Do your part to keep Dehan awake!

tubby do u still have sat, sun and mon's new paper?
anyone does?

Suffer 6 more days and enjoy 4 months!

Totally DISTRACTED!

Are you Ready to Follow your Dreams?
HOw apt. Chanced upon an article 'the ridge- a nussu publication' talking about dreams. Here's an excerpt.

"I have a friend who wants to be a doctor. Intelligent and well-liked, mainly because of his friendly demeanour and amicable nature, this young man recently nailed an SAF scholarship to study Medicine in NUS. It looks like he is all set to achieve his goal. I asked him one day, why he wants to be a doctor? Was he inspired by the life-savers he has seen on television, or was he in awe of the revolutionary physicians that he read about in the papers? HIs answer took me by surprise: he actually wanted to be a professional tennis player, but his parents felt that the path he is on is the best one for him...."

Wow... Wonder who is that fellow colleague? Really would like to meet him to know how he copes with the stress and workload when his chosen path doesn't follow his dream. I can relate a little to him.

I finally remembered my dream! To be a travelling doctor. One who is able to see the world and goes around healing the sick. However, the path I've chosen can be justified by other less noble reasons. Well.. I need to consider the burden on my parents so I accepted the scholarship to ease one child off my poor dad's shoulders. So now.. it's three other children to support through uni. Next it's for the money.. leading my present life requires cash. Going out as frequent as I am doing now, hanging out with different friends certainly requires money. Guess my friends are all rich cos somehow they seem to be able to live the same or more lavish lifestyles than I do. Actually, the scholarship is no big deal cos there are many other more deserving people who declined it cos they would not want to sell their lives to the army. I see it as a way to survive for now.. and hopefully, through it I'll be able to live out my dream.

To see the world and heal the sick.

Sounds good eh? Haha... well just need to get it into my head so that it can motivate me to study harder. Study!

How Long More?
Wake me up when it's over.

Sometimes i wish there was more encouragement and concern than throwing me straight down to the brutal reality.

Dreams
Holding conversations with Y has always been thought provoking. Things which make you wanna pause, reflect and express your views.

"What is your Dream?"
"To try not to be a screwed up doctor.."
"That is not a Dream... that's a goal... a Dream is different."

What is a Dream?
The dictionary says,
1.A wild fancy or hope
2.Condition or achievement that is longed for; an aspiration

Martin Luther King's "I have a dream" speech on equality for blacks has spurred the civil rights movement in the United States. His people shared his views and through his charismatic speech, he inspired them to fight for their rights. Such that, now his dream can be almost said to be a reality. What powerful consequences someone's dream can have.

Dreams are things that you want in your life, what you truly love to do, your calling. Without dreams, your life would be a stand still, stagnant and dull. Dreams often push people beyond limits, as seen in mountaineer David Lim, who struggled to recover from a debilitating nervous disorder to resume mountain climbing as a partially disabled individual.

When you were young, have you ever been asked what is your dream? "I dream for world peace"; "I dream for a clean and green earth"; "I dream to be an astronaut!", are answers often heard from little young ones. Well.. mine was to be a pilot or a doctor.

So to be a doctor was a dream then and now it isn't? Just cos I'm in medical school now and it is soon to become reality so that is not considered a dream? Well... I guess to me it is no longer a dream cos it is not a wild fancy nor is it a powerful motivating factor in my life anymore. What is my dream then? To save countless people's lives? Or to have a comfortable happy family, with wonderful Mrs Diane Doctor, sweet Ms Daisy Doctor and sporty Master Dylan Doctor? I guess I'll have to come up with something to steer my life in the right direction.

WHAT IS YOUR DREAM?
Pursue your passion, Follow your dreams.

hairy boobs

hairy boobs
Originally uploaded by dehanh.

hairy boobs by lynn n jirong

if you think you are stressed, there are thousand others with more serious concerns, more immediate troubles and are therefore feeling more stressed than what you are going through right now. so stop whining and get your eyes off hairy boobs and back to your books!

I miss you like the sky misses the birds
I miss you like a song without the words
And everyday away from you it hurts
Cuz I'm missing you like crazy
I miss you like the sun misses the day
I need you like the desert that needs the rain
And baby it's driving me insane
Cuz I'm missing you like crazy
I'm missing you like crazy
-christina milan

I'm dying! thought i can finish upper and lower limb in a day. but as of 12.18 am the next day, i'm still at upper limb. dunno what am i to do... if anyone has a way to remember stuff easily, anyway, anything, i'm willing to try! so worried about not being able to finish. trying to destress by blogging now.

i'm beginning to like church more. yesterday at youth fellowship, got to know a few more people and had a nice chat with them about selling my 12 years of my life to the army. however, my ailing memory is failing to allow me remember their names even after they've told me a dozen times. so far, i only remember sujun lao shi, jun neng, randy, david, ci en, yu en, trevor, velda and abigail. the rest... i'm still trying very hard!

today, cow's mum bought me another book! today is library Lord's day so the sermon was all about the benefits of reading. when i went with her to browse at the recommended books sold at the canteen, she purchased one of them on the spot and gave it to me! i was shocked once again! she has pulled this stunt on me twice already! but wow.. thanks aunty!
then as we sat in the canteen drinking our beverages, one lady came up and commented, "wah, this is your son ah?" she jokingly replied, "ya this is my half son." shocked me once again! luckily, i swallowed my coffee or i would have spitted out at the old lady in front of me. hahaha... oh man... enough surprises for today. if i'm cow's mum half son, then i'm cow's half brother which means i'm a half cow? i maybe born in yr of ox and am a taurus, but i definitely do not wanna be a half cow. hahaha... but then again, since aunty and uncle are so nice... i don't mind being their half son! hahahah...

hey everyone go watch russell peters videos online. he's an indian stand up comedian who cracks racist jokes about blacks (jamaicans),yellows (chinese), whites(canadians) and browns(himself). basically everyone la! i've one video of him. get from me if you want.
one of my favourite parts is how do you pronounce this african name? !xobile
it's *tock* bee lay. clicking your tongue on your hard palate. how cool is that? i'll call my son *click* han.

sel> ya ya... don't worry, i'm not disappointed. however, the other guys will be... *wink* have fun in naruwan! don't eat til you explode!

bang> eh... ok i'll change vocabulary now. no more asses for me. how about bless?

koey> ya david's songs are growing on me too! initially thought they weren't so good. i like catherine, ai wo hai shi ta, jiu shi ai ni and sweet hour of prayer. but there are crappy songs too like sula and lampa? what crappy names for fictitious characters! sounds a little vulgar too. don't really like ghost as well.

ok online tutorial for putting up songs on blogs.
*first you have to upload your song online. i use geocities. but you can use any other website that allows to put up files online. the only downside to geocities is there is limited bandwidth, so when too many people have gone to your blog others can't listen to the song for the rest of the day.
*after you've uploaded your song, click on it and copy the address.
*go to your template, insert this- EMBED src= "http://youraddresshere.mp3" width=25 height=25
autostart=true (enclose the above insert with <>)
*you can make it play over and over again by inserting loop=true after the autostart=true
*or hide the player by inserting hidden=true
so now you have your own music on your blog!

oh no... wasted day. was awaken by my mum's phone call at nine thirty. my mum will be bringing my aunt and cousin who just returned from canada to my room in 10 min! whoa... couldn't show them a dirty room right? jumped out of bed... brushed teeth and tried to clean up a little. then the phone rang again.... oh no... can't do much now... have to pick them up from the carpark. so i picked them up and gave my aunt a hug.. oh my! haven't seen her for so long and she has adopted an ah soh prc straight hair!! kept my comments to myself though... couldn't be rude to my senior right? hahaha... sigh in the end they helped me vacuumed and mopped my room.

kept falling asleep in the library. so i went home and watched the oc dvd hanboon lent me. oh man... they are addictive! told myself i'd watch only 1 episode ended up watching 5 in a row! n still have more than 20 more to go. i think i better hide them so i'll only watch them after pros. rich kids exciting life babes hunks. sounds too good to be true eh? wonder if there is really such a county.

oh man... my ex indian wife has rejected our invitation to go on our diving trip! she has decided to go with the honeys and toe to taiwan. even after half an hour of begging, cajoling, reverse psychology, self pity, she still decides to go with the girls. sorry guys... you all are not hunk enough. she didn't even think twice on making up her mind. better up your hunk factor by learning more dishes, be more gentlemanly, learn smooth talking and have cooler attitude. hold more food parties! so with no da sao or girls coming along, i quote her 'we'll be having unadulterated boy fun!'

rj>eh.. i was trying to save your face... why you shoot yourself in the ass?

bang>whoa finally you can! so your comp decided to upgrade itself ah?

zy>cos u were bloated with beer! not drinking ended up drinking the most...

liana>oh ya.. maybe we can hold the next potluck at your place! jade!~

lynn>ya we missed you! we were saying oh man.. we need lynn! she'll help us wipe the food up!

renjun's chinchilla

renjun's chinchilla
Originally uploaded by dehanh.

mo's soft, cuddly and ticklish!!!!

@ RENJUN'S

@ RENJUN'S
Originally uploaded by dehanh.

gals... eligible bachelors who can cook!!! do consider them!

nagging headache. so no mood to blog.

but just wanna say that i'm impressed by the food party at renjun's! din know it's a potluck session... so i turned up with no food but a bottle of thai rum called similan. in the end, there was too much food! typical chinese mentality. always get more food than necessary. got to say that i'm rather useless... the guys all can cook except me! no wonder they are attached and i'm not eh? so i better go learn a few dishes from my mama so that i can impress the girls! hahaha...

the entire party just reminded me of shows i see where a group of friends gather for a fabulous meal at someone's house, something like in naked chef. friends bring bottles of wine then chit chat, exchange tips on cooking, have a good meal and decide on the person who will whip up the next meal. wow... and we're actually doing it now! now... we have 2 da sao's already. the next time, will i have da saos for all of my buddies? hopefully so...

jasper, hunky, renjun and zhongyang. jia you!!! hopefully i'll see more da saos the next time.

chefs:
jasper-popiah
renjun-mozzarella cheese sausage, barbequed smoky mushroom and onion soup
zhongyang-fried rice
dickson-some italian tomato and foccacia bread
rachel-potato salad
jianbang-longan beancurd
amanda-roast chicken
yijun-cheese cake

last pbl!

last pbl!
Originally uploaded by dehanh.

our pbl class with sabrinah the secretary witch.
artist- isaac seow

finally! we've finished our last pbl. after so much changing and waiting and raging angers, we've gone thru a rather crappy pbl. the dr actually forgot about our lesson so he came in not knowing how pbl is conducted and what the case was about. oh well... we did go thru some physiology regarding kidney and heart and it was over! not that pbl is very lousy, it's just that holding it at alexandra hospital was an absolute disaster due to admin problems. well that's over... and hopefully that is the last of sabrinah the secretary witch.

the seminar room was like a fully equipped house. really nice place! sofas.. an entire kitchen, nice ass washing toilet bowls, waiting high chairs outside the toilet and computer room. it looked so comfortable that isaac went ransacking the kitchen and made himself a nice mug of coffee. only that it belonged to the cleaning lady! n she was unhappy that some crappy pseudo angmoh who can't spk mandarin for nuts stole her coffee! isaac then used his halting mandarin and replied.. i only took one sip, you may have it back! if i was the aunty i'd have slapped him that smuck ass.

so while waiting for the dr (he was forty five min late i think), we played pepsi cola at the large carpetted area. wah... the last time i played was maybe pri sch? so the only ones who had an actual childhood played(daniel, wayne, isaac and i). the rest just sat and watched. sigh.. anyway.. we came up with so many stances whether attacking or defending. isaac had the flying helicopter kicks, daniel had the clamping leg technique, wayne and his si jiao cao tian(4 limbs in the sky) defense move and me with eagle spreads his wings defense. haha.. shit man. really damn fun!

ended off with taupoking chris ho. don't you see chris ho so fair and flabby, easily bullied. oh man... he still has his canoeist genes in him. bloody strong! i was supposed to pin him down but he immediately went into fetal position so in the end i held the most weight from the taupoking. wah... looks like he had lotsa experience. must have been taupoked lotsa times in canoeing last time... know how to defend against already. nvm... next time we'll get jianhong to pin you down!

ok ended off the day with dinner. the food was ok la. got a good laugh from 'dunno how to tie hair's' uniform and the photo in the digicam. felt damn stupid cos i suddenly cannot remember lotsa stuff and just forgot how to put what i want to say into words. there's just something wrong with me. totally screwed up. well just blame it on head trauma from rugby then :) . early alzheimer's? shit man.. touch wood.

tmr's play day! soccer then party at renjun's! so must have late night tonight. going to jog then finish up protein metab now! pls scold me if i didn't finish protein.

Wa Jie by Jay Chou
heard the song at my ushering event. it's really very nice! but too bad the lyrics are too chim for me to remember. Uploaded the jay chou version just for you. so click on the link just below sweet hour of prayer and go file>save as.. to save it into your com!

i'm dumbo the sniffling elephant. my nose feels so ticklish that it's as if i've a feather up my nose. the ticklish sensation is going up the nasolacrimal duct and smarting my eyes too! now.. i just wanna chop off my nose to tear out the 3 concha!

Paulaner's n Prego

0.5l of good stuff man. although it contributes to my round belly, it was quite good. got a little light headed and crazy. but from my craziness, i started a string of conversation which was eye opening. sigh... i'm the only one left. but it's ok... not too worried!

thanks lynn for the prego's lobang man. cos we took a trip down tonight and got ourselves a bunch of goodies. you are officially my makan informer! while waiting in line to buy the pastries, charming yau hong struck up a conversation with an indian lady and her family. their family is like those high class rich kind, so to go up to their level, hunky enunciated every word so well and spoke so perfectly! hahaha... the conversation was the funniest. the indian family and all of us began suaning bang about being so sweet and nice to his gf and how we should all learn from him. hahaha... ya i think we really should! wish i had someone who does nice stuff for me too. :)

can't wait for wed! jasper remember to bring howl's moving castle besides your bang guang!

shall add chatterbox with tag board. wanna see which one is better. although tag board failed me the whole of last week, it has been quite faithful and useful on the job. so i shall not reject it totally cos of a minor setback. chatterbox will assist tag board and i'll see which is better.

hey everybody! those who wanna get your hands on apple products esp the most coveted ipod, ipod mini and ipod shuffle, don't purchase it at the public price. go online and get it cos it's cheaper and there is free shipping and free laser engraving! tertiary students will get educational discounts when you purchase mac products. so don't be silly and pay that little bit extra. go to www.apple.com.sg then education. this is where you can purchase a 6gb mini for 400 bucks. so go think and compare prices before purchasing!

hitch was fantastic! had a good laugh. really glad that one of my few play day outings before exams turned out well. thank god! thanks for helping me not have severe diarrhea too. only mild one with a burning ass. thanks! :)

heard that genevieve saw ruien the other day, so i thought today would be a good day too, and brought along my camera so that the moment i see her i'll go ask her for a photo or no. she's so cute! jasper's linda from chase is not bad too la. huge eyes with a little ptosis. so pretty! hahaha.. ok typing this while half asleep.

so good night! need to wake up early to organise ifg touch.

tubby> no. my belly is still there cos i pigged out even though i exercised.
eternal eyes> stay in hall la. i want a different experience. stay in pgp 2 sems already! so let's go hall...

Why is Tag-Board down??? irritating.. anyone knows an alternative to tagboard?

whole body aching from gym and running. thanks jasper for the company! we should do it more often to keep fit. i'm so going to be paralysed by aches tmr. argh...

It's finally over! CAs are over. but i'm not rejoicing. am disappointed with myself actually. what happened to me? why have i allowed myself to be in this state. where is the RAFFLESIAN SPIRIT of excellence? going to an exam only knowing the tip of the iceberg of syllabus is not what makes a doctor. you'll kill patients in the future, if you can even get that far! pull up those socks of yours. Lord please let me pick up myself and catch up with my batch mates!

FLABBERGASTED
shock of my life when i saw 8.57am on my watch. rubbed my eyes... thought i was in a dream. but NO! but wait... physio starts at 10 right? then again... it's at 9am! PHYSIO PAPER STARTS AT 9!
no time! jumped out of bed. grabbed my bag, bottle, matric card, cap and jacket and rushed to the bus stop!
Good thing bus frequency is high... how i appreciate living at PGP now... so ran all the way to COFM and planted my ass on the seat at 9.10am. my brain felt numb during the entire exam. must be the shock i received the moment i woke up.

MORAL of the story: when 2 alarms don't work, set 3.

1 down. 2 more to go. managed to pass biochem by guessing and eliminating chim looking answers. well actually i think most people passed. ya n in medicine, getting a pass is no big deal when everyone's so smart. it's crazy to know the bell shaped curve for grades is shifted so right that it can't be considered bell shaped anymore. sigh... so must work harder for pros, esp when it's essay, so no more guessing!

physio is one big headache. it's really fun to learn and understand and discuss. but when so many concepts and pathways are stored in the tiny brain of mine, they somehow get amalgated. well at least it's fun! i think it's the most fun subject. doing well is another matter. so whether it's Na-K ATPase or Na- H antiport protein. i'll just leave it to God.
Received a quote from dee.

Psalms 18:2- The Lord is my rock, my fortress, and my deliverer. My God is my rock, in whom I take refuge.

So find solace in God! Thanks denise!

dee dee(the one who posted the tag)> hahaha... case of mistaken identity! dee dee was meant to be denise. so i've 2 dee dees now? i think u just be hot spots la k? hahaha...

toe> so confident of physio eh? spent the whole afternoon online. hahaha... get back to work han sis!~

hb> just go view my source then put in your template. the song must be uploaded online first though. i use geocities to upload mine. sigh... can't listen to the song now. bandwidth taken up....

less than 12 hours to biochem paper already!
don't really care already. i'll do whatever i can now and pia right after CA! whoever wants to join me can find me at cubicle number 5, Medical Library ground floor.

dee dee> heya dee! can i add a link to your blog? thanks! hopefully i'll see ya after my CAs during outing.

qy> u evil man! the idea was formulated in the evil mind of yours and carried out by your sinister hands. so don't blame it on others!

buddy phua> hello mr phua! nice of you to drop by. thanks! good luck in your top secret training. haha..

sel> yes salt! hey the europe trip i think it's too big a group already. confirm got big group syndrome... waste lotsa time. so maybe i'll go next year? haha... feel like going for the indonesia tsunami relief thing.

ALL THE BEST FOR CAS!

anyone can hear the song i put up?

Difficult Fasting

2 days ago, wanted to discipline myself by fasting and praying but it was no easy experience. once every so often, liana and jirong will say that they are fasting. Now i truly know how difficult it is. I realised that usually in between meals, i would have snacks or pop candies into my mouth to tide me through. So during the fasting period, I kept thinking about food! My mouth was itching for something to put into it. Had to suppress it a little by drinking lots of water. Cephalic phase of GIT kept kicking in and gastric juices churned and swished in my empty stomach. I couldn't concentrate on studying at all! Wow.. if after missing 1 meal, i can feel like this, what about those who have no food elsewhere? So thank God for the bountiful food i have to make me this big. Should try it again with more prayer, to remind me how fortunate i am!

SEL= salt in french

Irritating salty qy really pissed me off! Had my dinner at coffee grounds and he added salt to my funghi soup w/o my knowledge! Drank it happily while i was engrossed in conversation. Only when i've nearly finished it then did he break the news. Grrr.. so post- prandially, my thirst centre was stimulated and i had to keep drinking water! my lips cracked and after the huge intake of water, i had to piss so much. Dunno how i managed to drink the salty liquid! Watch out QY! u and me will become enemies!!! hahaha... only after i pass my driving will i be nice to you the bad role model!

CA!

1 more day to CA. chiong sexual reproduction now! argh!!!!!

received news that i have a choice of doing a month of attachment instead of two. so i can have company when i go to europe now! however, more choices have opened and i'm put into another quandary. bridgette is inviting me to go to indonesia for tsunami restoration. i'm very tempted to go and that would put me back by 800 bucks. if i go ahead with the europe trip with friends, another 3000 would be gone. diving trip with windsurfing gang 500 bucks. so more spending of money when i'm earning a month less of pay. how how?

Shall try fasting tomorrow. Have never tried it before. I've eaten so much all my life that when i've stopped exercising, my belly is growing. not bad a belly actually... with long strands of hair to attempt to cover an otherwise naked surface. remember those days when i used to squeeze tummy into folds and see how many beef patties i could get in my hamburger belly. now he's back and piling on the patties, think the record now is four. patty no. 5 on the way. it doesn't help that the dean's office is having a buffet spread these 3 days and all of us can help ourselves to leftovers. they have not 1 meal but four meals a day!!! not sure if there was breakfast, but there was brunch, lunch, tea break and dinner! which is why i should fast tmr. it'll be hard on my first try... but it'll be good to train my discipline. fast and pray to make me a whole man. fast and pray to hold my belly growth.

ASS! CHEE KEN!!!
sianz....

ok i know now it's time to work hard. but i need to settle some leisure stuff too! lynn and gang are going to europe in late may while selene and hanboon are going to phuket right after pros. so now i've no kaki to go europe with!

i need to go right after pros like maybe 18 apr onwards so that i can come back by pdcp which is in mid may. can't go in june or july cos i've got army attachment. so ANYONE INTERESTED TO JOIN THE LONELY BOY? i don't mind subsidising a bit if i can find just 1 partner. deciding between free and easy and contiki travels. can get ticket to london for 698 ++ from contiki by this fri 4 mar. so anyone up for it?????

those who are borderline in studies like me, we can pia right after ca for the entire month!

FAILED.
jittery. nervous. unsettled. my nerves just got the better of me.
my lesson just before the test went smoothly. yet i mounted kerb, almost killed a motorcylist from oncoming traffic, slid down the slope a little, supposedly didn't look at my rear windscreen when parking (which i did) and dragged the gears too long, too slow in changing during the test. ass! when i mounted kerb in the circuit, it was OVER! what use was there to continue driving? so with nothing to lose, i was more relaxed and drove with little mistakes. But what use was there??? i've failed! Immediate failure! but huo bu dan xing. so i had to have 2 immediate failures!

it seems so normal for people to say, it's just a driving test. so many people have failed it. so why get so upset over it? ya sure... but it's just that i've never failed in any major exam or test in my life! small tests sure... but not any important ones. it's just so upsetting! it's not that i dunno how to drive. it's not that i've not prepared for it. in fact, so much money and time has been put into it. yet unsettled nerves just destroyed everything. pissed off and disappointed!

so sad me decided to go to west mall to find some solace and happiness. tried food therapy. ate ice cream. and other junk. didn't care about the money. now i know why depressed people sometimes stuff themselves with food. chocolate releases endorphins which make u a lil happy. warm food gives you the physical warmth when there is no human warmth (hug) needed to feel better. the food helped temporarily and my stomach was stuffed. couldn't find anyone to talk to. so decided to watch movie by myself. only one of 2 times that i've done so. CLOSER. thought it was a comedy. but no, it was some complicated screwed up love relationship among 4 individuals. so troubling. well at least there were good looking people in jude law and nathalie portman. portman is really hot! but quite indecent in the show cos she was a stripper. ya anyway although it was a disturbing show, i felt somewhat better. i now know i'm not the only one who watches movie by myself. there were a few other loners too! hahaha...

after that, went to chinatown to relive some nice memories. stuffed myself with food at food street. food therapy! stumbled into a cool looking shophouse bar called backstage bar which turned out to be the only gay bar in the area. the owner even asked if i was gay! shit man.... now i know a rainbow coloured flag is the symbol for gay. then went to the cheap cd shops at chinatown. bought stef sun and david tao cds for 12 bucks only! retail therapy! next went to the austrian sausage shop to get cheese knaukers from the cool angmoh owner who speaks singlish. exchanged banter with him enough to make me smile.

ended the depressing day with a kind heart. saw a lady having difficulty carrying a haversack and a baggage at buona vista. people with such baggages tend to be foreigners who stay on nus campus, so i offered to carry the baggage. turned out to be really heavy!!! she's a 3rd year arts student who just came back from an education conference in UAE and she had her diving gear which explained the damn heavy bag! been to an overseas conference myself so can relate to her exciting and fun experience. i don't mind going for another of such conferences, meeting international youths and exchanging views and having fun! and from how she described UAE, i don't mind considering it a holiday destination.

wow... what a day. feel much better now. after tonight, sleep therapy will round up and should cure me of my disappointment.

boy! has she become prettier! glad i took the break.

driving practical test tmr! wimble womble wobble...

Dedicated to deranged cow.
This is what you get when a cow is too sensitive to touch.

just came back from ucc ushering. not bad a play by temasek hall. funny and intriguing. can't believe the 2 better hall plays i've watched are free while the only other paid one was a disaster. well... benefits of ushering at ucc. besides watching the play, i got to know a few of my fellow ushers better. real jokers! oh and one of them, an rj senior doing lit reminds me of jiayan! hahaha... it's because of them that my yet another unproductive day didn't end on a sad note.

actually, my wasting of time is pissing me off real bad. i'm either sleeping or wasting time doing stupid stuff which can be done some other time. maybe it includes blogging too. sigh... but my day didn't start on a bad note. in fact, it started wonderfully and i thought it'd be a great day. i was wrong.

thanks to cow's mum for getting me a english-chinese bible. was chatting to cow's dad when i received the gift. i was pleasantly surprised! your folks are really nice chaps afterall. suddenly i feel so loved in church. ok i shld consider treating cow a lil nicer since your folks are so nice. hahaha...

now to end the day on a good note... please let me stay up til late to study! i must be able to answer all of fatty ng's questions tmr!

went for my 2nd mandarin youth fellowship. thank god for allowing me find a friend in the same church as i am. before that i was lonely and knew nobody, ok i knew my team mate but not very close to him so not much difference. ya the only prob is... cow is in mandarin service n i seldom speak and listen to mandarin. anyway.. i found that mandarin service is actually easier to understand cos the message conveyed is put in simpler n more layman terms. at the english service, most of the time i was trying hard to decipher the bombastic vocab and complicated sentence structures that i lost the gist of the msg.

ya anyway... today's topic was bgr. quite an apt topic for people our age. it's the age when either u're in it and have some problems or when u don't have it and it's a problem. the speaker was very cute and animated esp when he gave examples and analogies. he gave his views on which age is best to have a relationship, why to have one, who shld have one and how to get one. most of his views are quite conservative which is not a bad thing in this too liberal society of ours where sex seems to be everywhere.

things i learnt:
only ppl who has strong spiritual foundation shld have a relaionship. that's when you're mature enough.
only find a like minded christian as your partner.
don't date too long lest physical temptations creep on you before marriage.

a few analogies which i like.
how after marriage, the simplest thing can cause heated arguments. for example, the husband likes to squeeze the toothpaste from the bottom while the wife likes to squeeze it from the top. so it needs understanding and hu xiang li rang to maintain a relationship.

why should your partner be a like minded christian? so that your core values of your lives are the same and it'll be easier to walk together in life. also if your partner is a non believer, he's like a person sitting down and you standing up. is it easier for the person to pull you down or you pull him up?

i guess i'm still weak spiritually. i need to pursue more enthusiastically. i've not read the entire bible before so i need to start to be more consistent. i need to pray everyday. hopefully, as i do i'll be mature enough to have a relationship.

pray hard cow... i'll pray for you too.

hawaii: found it! Acts 16:14

i finally succeeded as an alarm clock! i just couldn't fail on the 3rd time.

having pbls at alexandra hospital is pissing my group off. first of all, me, the grp leader has to liase with the AH secretary so as schedule new timings cos the doctors are not free and keep changing the time. having gone so much trouble in doing so, my grp members happily decide not to attend cos they think it's at a timing too inconvenient for them. how selfish of them esp one person! and today, they decide to do a mass ponning cos there wasn't lecture today and all the more reason to stay home. can't believe this! out of 12, only 7 turned up! and to reiterate the saying hao ren mei hao bao, the doctor goes on leave and we made a wasted trip to AH! it's perfectly fine for the doctor to go leave, but confirming with us and making us go down there and saying that he's not around is absolutely absurd! sabrinah, the secretary, is so inefficient! how could she not have known this?!!! instead of apologising to us or even feel a tinge of guilt, she goes ahead and scolds us (the guai ones who bother to go down) for the poor attendance. she even gives her own views on how medical students shld do consistent work and not wait til last min to mug for exams, so no excuse for not having pbl near the ca!. what a prick! as huren said, she's sabrinah the elderly witch! now, i have to schedule a new time for the next pbl session. if the other grps can condense 2 pbl sessions into 1, i don't see how we can't do the same. the AH STAFF are so inflexible and inconsiderate, unlike NUS staff. argh!!!!

can't wait for tmr!

troubling troubling troubling troubling.
slept at 3plus 4 but dont really feel that sleepy today.

felt really embarassed that i dunno my work in tut. external carotid supplies to the brain was what i said. can't believe i even said that. sigh... it calls for mugging! time to reduce whatever damage i can. 2 n a half weeks to ca and i haven't started studying. oh man... must turn on mugger mode.

things couldn't get any better. while i was still feeling terribly troubled, i had to bump my head on the roof as i alighted the bus. *plonk* i was so embarassed i just walked on pretending nothing happened.

then i did a few more daredevil stunts while driving again. still stalled the car a few times. swerved away from pedestrian and crazy vehicle. mounted kerb. knocking down pole while vertical parking. i would have failed a few times over. sigh...

so moody me always tries to put up a happy face. the best way to be happy is to help others be happy. smiling surely brightens up your friends' day.

things are getting better i think. thank you Lord. now i don't hide what i feel, i'll just say it. and hopefully through your graciousness, the problem will be solved in no time!

off to the study room!

thank you for the nice conversation. i'm glad it's cleared up. take your time to find the solution.
oh Lord, please make it right! thank You!

pinkie

pinkie
Originally uploaded by dehanh.

meant for someone. but just had to give it to the cute kid! so had to pose with amandalam's pink heart balloon instead.

farewell gen!

farewell gen!
Originally uploaded by dehanh.

we'll miss you!

back of violet's van

back of violet's van
Originally uploaded by dehanh.

give me back my comfy green cushion!

had a really fun v-day!!!

was restless the entire day during lessons in school. supposed to study in library then go for the swinging singles' party at jianhong's house.

ended up going to orchard with ah ngoh. the fun started when we got a lift from violet. thanks violet! her aunty's van is really cool! jasper n i sat at the back where there were so many cushions and soft toys enough to make the back of the van so comfortable. i wouldn't mind getting such a comfortable van in place of any high class automobile. the only prob was i got a little woozy and motion sick from all the turning and bumping as violet got lost getting to orchard! someone get her a gprs for her birthday!

anyway, great retail therapy for lonely boys without dates on v-day! was supposed to just accompany him to shop for shoes, but we ended up buying 3 shirts each! went to john little to find the pink valentino shirt yau hong was wearing today. saw that the shirts were so cheap that we spent hours trying on every shirt we saw. in the end, i settled on a green valentino and green stripey shirt while jas chose a blue valentino and a green tee. hahaha.. then we went on lamenting about us not having dates and that love was all around us. couples, roses and hearts were the theme for the day. they were infesting orchard!!! someone shld ban all of them from orchard.

being sour grapes and envious, we had to resort to flirting with 2 girls at heeren and got our complimentary heart-shaped red n pink balloons. who says 2 guys couldn't walk around with pink n red heart balloons hovering over our heads? hahaha... think everyone thought we were gay! then it was at heeren where we continued our shopping. bodyknits was on sale! n everything was pasar malam cheap. 50 n 70 % off selected items. so a t-shirt cost like less than 15 bucks. where could u find such prices? so we entered the fitting room 5 times, trying on almost every nice shirt! s, m, l, xl. red, blue, brown, black. we tried everything! the poor salesgirl must be wondering why she had to fold endless number of shirts on v-day. hahaha...

after that, rushed down to the airport to send gen off to her vet studies in australia. gave her a red heart balloon, took photos and charmed lil eurasian kids with my heart shaped balloons. so i ended up going home with no heart balloons... sigh.. anyway, at least i made a few children happy!

the highlight for the day was celebrating toh han's birthday in conjunction with the singles' party. taped her mouth up with duct tape to enjoy a wonderful period of silence, then blindfolded her as we led her to her birthday surprise. happy birthday toh han! n splash, she fell into the swimming pool. we couldn't let her off so easily right? so han boon smashed cake into her face! hahaha... well the suffering was all for a good cause as she was touched by the dkny watch that we got her! it must have been a memorable burfday for u toe!

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Happy Valentine's everybody!
Hope it'll be a great day for everyone! Cheers!

moody moody moody.
depressed depressed depressed.
CURED!

ecstatic pizza

ecstatic pizza
Originally uploaded by dehanh.

hey does this look like me? one of the many happy herby places in cambodia.

fisherman's village

fisherman's village
Originally uploaded by dehanh.

here's a nice photo of a warm cosy dinner by the sea. great ambience and sea breeze. had a good time there!

visiting day!! quite a fun day today. went to visit my granduncles, grandaunts and great grand mother! yes i still have a great grand mother, how cool is that? she's going to be 100 soon i think, lost track of her age but she's still quite healthy. sat with her while she talked to me about stuff. i'm glad i know a bit of hainanese and hokkien which helped me a great deal when my relatives speak. ya she complained about my mum not bringing her along when she went to china, complained that she's so old and there is no meaning to live and that the maid refuses to let her drink her xo to improve her blood circulation for fear that she'll get drunk. hahaha... well i actually saw her tipsy side once when she stayed at my place. poured a lil too much alcohol and she started walking sideways!!! hahaha what a sight! oh man... sorry great grand ma, quite rude to laugh at you. anyway... have a great new year! hope you'll visit my house again.

actually heard the entire story of my family's close shave in phuket today. when i first returned and my mum told me the stories, i was quite indifferent. i was more interested in telling my side of the story in cambodia and all the fun i've had. it was only today, when she raconted the entire story to my uncle and aunt that i'm truly thankful to God that they escaped from the gallows of the tidal wave.

thank Lord for letting them stay at the diver's resort at Chalong bay, south east of Phuket and away from the full force of the tsunami. thank God for letting my bros and aunt be far out at sea on their way to snorkelling, where the wave was still small and not yet devastating. thank God for allowing my cousin and uncle to hide behind a rock when they went diving under the sea, and when the current washed them to the surface, they were safe from harm. thank God for keeping my entire family from harm during their stay at Phuket. you're the best!!

Happy New Year!
had the time of my life! woke up at eleven. visited my grandma's house downstairs. received my ang pows. then stoned and slept the entire afternoon away.

i think i can relate to children cos i think like them. i love to act like them and laugh like them. their innocence and pure hearts make them so adorable. my mum just told me that i can interact quite well with children.

in retrospect, i think i do. back in cambodia, i enjoyed playing with the children. being their swing or piggy backer. i'm not inhibited by how childish i look. i just act like them, play like them and have fun like them. seeing them give truly happy smiles is what makes it so enjoyable.

today, at my dad' boss' open house dinner. with the entire place swarming with adults, whom i don't really know what to say to, i felt uneasy n self conscious. to attempt to be sociable, i decided to pick up the nearest girl i saw. a cute girl dressed in pink. hahaha.. this 5 yr old is really intelligent and is not afraid of strangers. she readily opened up after my initial introductory questions. so rachel and i started discussing about ants on the tree, beautiful flowers in the garden, her shaven golden retriever lola, her birthday and the humming bird she saw. my size didn't scare her at all. n i'm glad it didn't. thank you rachel for the company in the uncomfortable setting!

i love children!!!!

new asia bar on the 60th floor!

new asia bar on the 60th floor!
Originally uploaded by dehanh.

1st time at new asia bar! real cool place with a fabulous view.

a rollercoaster ride i've taken today. the queasiness still remains.
my mind is happy that i've taken the ride but not my stomach and intestines.
i wished the 2 evils were not there, leaving only my mind n body.
to enjoy the ups and downs, without the pain and suffering.

i love to sms on my phone, to see the work of art i compose.
but when a button doesn't work, who can i approach?
to use the other buttons, a story can still be told.
but without the finishing touches, the excitement will not unfold.

mc sent this to me.
really cute! some parts a little gross though. have fun!
zhiji

failed as an alarm clock 2nd time in a row! gone were the days when i was an efficient and trustworthy alarm clock. i'm sorry!!! i can't fail on the 3rd time!!!

woke up late so didn't go for mandarin service. went for youth meeting instead. met many new ppl today and had fun getting to know them better. don't mind hanging out with them... now i know why old people still wanna hang out with youths... makes them feel younger!

drum banging is mind bogling. i've absolutely no rhythm n limbs coordination. i can't multi task let alone move my four limbs at different speeds at the same time. now i'm truly amazed how gerald could play the drums so well. ppl lend me your drums! i shall train n learn so that i can finally multi task!

star light. star bright. first star i see tonight. wish i may. wish i might. a shooting star to light the night.
wished for a shooting star. but i guess i could settle for a flickering one with a chick head attached! what a surprise! THANK YOU!

new asia bar was a cool place! 70 floors above the city, you could see the skyline and have an unobstructed view of the bright lights of the city. good place to chill out or club. do check it out!

wish i had a program or website for mac users to upload photos on blogs easily. so no photos from new asia bar from me. what a waste! the pictures of 2 pretty girls can't be viewed. what a difference when girls bother to dress up. for guys, well no difference so don't bother. ppl, do spend time to take a 2nd look at pancake or indian wife!

beleaguered from all sides. crazy ppl. stoppit before the hypothalamic temperature regulatory system breaks!

i'm more than a meanie. i'm above average.

buy me a spittoon so i can spit. buy me a spittoon so i can spit. cough cough the green man strains. gack gack the thick man resists. whoosh out he goes. swirling and swishing on the bumpy cushion. knocking and banging against hard white walls. expel expel expel the intruder. out you go sticky man! and forever do not return!

but his twin returns and a harder a cough n a harder a gack. oh please go away!


nonstop on radio! ~singapore has got 4 million ppl, 2 million are girls. subtract 1 million who are old, there are still 1 million young ones. how can your grandson not find a gf?~
excerpt from the movie i do i do.

should i or should i not? if i go ahead, things may go wrong. i may be wrong. i'm not even sure. think it is better to hold back until i am.
i've changed. i've learnt to have confidence and courage. but did it come with immaturity? or is this the real me? to be stone or be fun yet immature?

procrastination is my game. slacking is a bane. 5 more weeks to ca. can i learn to balance n manage my time?

congrats to bang! one foot in already. the other foot just needs you not to screw up. of course u won't. after all the salsa training, your feet should be sure and steady. those were the days, when we were complaining. now you've left jasper, yau hong and i to whine amongst ourselves. all the best!!!! you're the man!

xingning left for melbourne today. have fun studying there! wish i could go overseas too. anyone wants to go europe with me after professional exams?

i'm lazy to update my blog. what reason is there for me to put in entries each day? i think i'll just write entries when i actually get about doing some work.

anyway latest things that i've done:
went to cambodia and back alive.
slacking around too much
going out too much. wild wild wet, fisherman's village, ocean's twelve, cosy bay. what next? new asia bar?
went for mandarin church service.
attended commissioning parade.

aim for the moon, fall among the stars.
i'll treat you if i ever see a shooting star again.

Thank you victor for organising such a successful bbq @ ecp! i'm sure everyone had loads of fun.
it was a good crowd of about fifty people where everyone let their hair down after weeks of studying for the cas.
i think after friday's bbq, we would have known a few more people in med fac. i for one now know who is meng chon and andy and teresa marie. it's amazing how med fac is so small yet we don't even know half of m1. i hope through all these activities all of us can get to know each other better.

when i reached there i was dismayed by the turn out. i thought oh no, it would be a failure cos i only saw like 6 people max at the pits with no sign of bbq preparation. good thing it turned out that the early birds were actually cycling or rollerblading along east coast. when i came back from renting my own pair of blades, the food were already sizzling on the pit and people were chit chatting and helping themselves to the food.

it's comforting to know that there is the fun side of medicine besides academic pursuits. exchanging of lame comments, laughing at the burnt food the chefs bbqed (i think cooking should be left to the celebrity chefs - mark and dehan), spilling of drinks on bags and banging people into lamp posts with legs spread open were a few highlights. of course there were the lovey dovey couples who fed each other food, whoa how sweet of them! i think medicine should form more couples now that we have our 2nd couple from medicine. it'd be good for our declining birthrate in s'pore.

ok that summarises the bbq @ ecp. do check out the photos taken. bbq

the next outing is on mon 6th dec @ sentosa. think there will be lots of m1 and m2s going. so see you there!

Dehan's Schedule for next 2 weeks:
Sun 5th Dec- checking out of pgp

Mon 6th Dec- Sentosa

Tue 7th Dec- 0700-0900 driving circuit
1230-1330 lunch with dean
1530 medical appt

Wed 8th Dec- 1000 medical appt/FRS
1200 cooking lesson
late afternoon/evening cambodia packing

Thu 9th Dec- Full day Anat tut with Prof Gopal
1800-2130 UCC ushering

Fri 10th Dec- Estimated late afternoon/evening cambodia briefing

Sat 11th Dec- FREE!
Sun 12th Dec- FREE!
Mon 13th Dec- 0830-1300 FRS presentation
Tue 14th Dec- Departure for Cambodia!
14th Dec-4th Jan Cambodia

Calling all friends! It would be good if i can meet up with you since i won't be around for xmas and the new year. i can't go for any parties or gatherings. so check my schedule and contact me soon!

Post CA1

Yay! it's finally over. 2 weeks of studying in the library and it's over! The exams didn't go too well but i'm just glad it's over. So now it's playing for a while and preparing for cambodia! Haven't had so much fun in a long time.
Right after exams, off we went to karaoke at partyworld. As sleazy a place as it can get, just reminds me of the malaysian hotel where we stayed during rugby tour where there were prostitutes and 'transies' hanging around in the dimly lit corners of the lobby. but it's the crowd that that we hang out with that counts right? getting all excited and crazy during the choruses with daniel was really fun. i think the best song rendition by us was the 'wayne yap, never give up!' song. it's so catchy and fun to see whiny wayne so pissed off. haha...

then it was the incredibles time! loved every moment of it! thought the pixar animators were great in giving each cartoon a unique character. ooooh... the hair looked so real too! the technology is really improving by leaps and bounds. i was really amused by all the weird objects elastigirl can transform herself into, esp when she became a boat with dash sprinting his ass off as the propeller. what a sight! i like dash's character best. loud, motor mouth, cool running style and ability to run on water made him so adorable! but i think the most shocking part was seeing the baby become evil! it's a demon baby! so young and it is able to change into a demon and a fireball? what bad influences it must have been exposed to.

anyway don't you agree the sheep in boundin' looks like middle sheep aka zhong yang?

i am going to abandon my com for the next 2 weeks cos i just realised that i need to complete a topic a day to barely finish studying for ca1. which is quite impossible considering that i'm really slow. so if you see me online tell me to get back to my books! all the best to the medics for the coming ca!!

bud>thanks bud! all the best for your a's too! what happened to your blog?
mandy>yay!!! saya tak cakap melayu. good!! we need to find more people! i think optimum number is 4.

a bientot dans deux semaines!

hey check out the links in the 'mes photos' section.
just uploaded a few.

oh get well soon rabblion!

anyone wants to go backpacking in europe next year?
i've to plan early cos i only have the 1st month as holiday. the 2 months before school starts it'll be attachments at hqmc.
we've to fit around the funny open book exam which is right smack in the middle of may. so anyone interested?
france and england will highly confirmed destinations. how about spain too?

think i'm getting my mood for studying back! Merci Dieu! although it's still quite slow. was very motivated to study, so when yahu hong suggested camping overnight at yih to study, i agreed immediately. somehow i wasn't sleepy when i was studying though there was a point when i felt really sian staring at the testis, scrotum and penis. yau hong on the other hand, kept dozing off, therefore we decided to sup at munchie monkey's.

my first time there and i'm amazed at the menu they serve. Related to the spageddies restaurant, it serves pasta, pizza, alochol and even escargot!!! i must try the escargot someday. ya so yau hong had to vienna's hotdog, while i was contented with my tuna and cheese foccacia. i would have very much preferred it to be mushroom and cheese foccacia, but tuna did just fine. the indian guy who served us looked really scary as he was quite big, had a beard(or moustache can't remember) and golden earrings. his voice was low and rough too, giving the impression of a gangster. in the end, he turned out to be quite friendly. when yau hong and i were brushing our teeth in the morning, he actually chatted with us. so one cannot judge someone too quickly!

we decided to take a hour nap and se lever at 4.15. but you know once we planted our heads on the sofa, it was over... the alarm couldn't wake us up. so we ended waking up 4 hours later and it was time to leave for lecture. what a night of studying!

word of advice: if you want to study at yih, make sure you bring more than a jacket. you need 2!!! wear pants if you can too cos they are out to freeZe you while you are mugging.

went to church today after absenting myself for months. it always feels good to be in the church. you'll feel calm, relaxed and your thoughts become clearer. however, i couldn't keep awake during the entire duration of the sermon. feel quite bad after. as usual, i don't know anybody in the church. so when my uncle talks to his many friends, i'd just stand in one corner or just let myself wander to look at the notice boards. danny's the only person i know there but he has his own group of youth fellowship friends so i'm often by myself. i'm thinking of finding another church. maybe i'll pop by to daniel's church soon since it's similar to my present conservative, fundamental one.

these days i'll reverting back to my introverted self. rugby changed me in the sense that i became louder and a little more 'wild'. now i'm inclined to just sit down at a table and not talk to my friends. i'll keep really quiet and just listen their crapping and jokes. of course i'll laugh along and comment here and there but i don't engage myself wholeheartedly in the conversation. another phase of life?

totally didn't do any work this weekend as usual. planned to finish tutorial and pbl but ended up sleeping the entire afternoon. very shiok! think i better get down to some work before je dors.

i think the best thing that happened today was the lunch treat from my brother. we lunched at an indonesian restaurant at bukit timah plaza which had a la carte buffet. the rendang, chilli sotong and fried ginger chicken were delicious! i think the best was the crispy golden chicken. it was so good that we ordered 3 baskets of it! i couldn't get enough of it. oh no i should have taken a photo of it!

my life needs some rejuvenation.

enculer! i just scratched my camera. there's a deep scratch on the front now. Salaud! L'oignon!

feeling damn tired after a slack session of soccer. my fitness doesn't even deserve to be called fitness. now i don't even feel like lifting my butt off the chair to go shower. my head feels tight, like someone is using a plastic bag trying to suffocate my brain. think a nice sleep will would cure this. but i can't. i know i must study but i just don't feel like it. i don't have any goals in life. i don't even see myself completing med school. did i make the right choice? even if i was wrong, i have no choice. unless i want to go db and carry sandbags.

i'm always procrastinating. i'm always complaining. whining seems like my past time. even i get tired of listening to my own complaints. give me or teach me how to find the solutions and i'll gladly stop! primary school was fine. secondary school was manageable. jc was problem ridden but i managed to squeeze through the narrow pores. will i be filtered at this stage? used to set goals like i want to get into ri, i want to get into rjc. in jc, it was kinda difficult to set a fixed goal as there are so many places to choose from. now it's even worse. where do i wanna go?

some people are blessed with beautiful brains. some beautiful faces. beautiful lives too.
my brain is ageing as fast as my face. my body is shifting to a lower gear too. how do i stop this ageing process? anti-oxidants?

now data takes 5 times as long to enter my hard disk. i may understand at the moment. but i'll forget soon after. my short term memory is failing too. i didn't use to forget friend's names. it's not long time friends whom i don't remember, it's the names of my recent friends that i sometimes can't even remember.

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sorry qingyuan. shall rectify it soon. took so long to upload the pictures yet it doesn't work. maybe i'll just boycott shutterfly and use yahoo photos instead. oh does anyone know how to decrease the megapixels of the pictures so that the file size aren't too big?

my new home is the library.
where i eat, sleep, play, enjoy, freeze and mug.

been playing around with fx-7. shall put up the pictures soon.
ok think i should give it a name soon. any good ones?

35% 41% 60% 39%
in order of the fas i've taken. failed 3/4. 2 anat and 1 biochem. what am i to do?

anyone has the entire season of the o.c. 1? to download it from bit torrent, it takes 1265 days. by the time that is finished ryan would have married marissa. and my hair would hopefully be a beautiful mess like sandy's.

Let me introduce to you my babe!


sleek eh? so i'll be putting up more pictures of school, friends and stuff!
do be part of my gallery.

once again... it's been a long time. blogging is so not part of my life anymore. but suddenly thought of it, so i shall post an entry. too much has happened to put down in words. don't have the energy to do so anyway. now in med sch and it's not easy. have always been doing last min work all my life and now found out that i'll be murdered by this old habit of mine. too much new info everyday and leaving everything to a later date has caused a long train of confusion and doubts. brain is working too slowly; can't ingest and digest quick enough. priorities are misplaced. wrong state of mind. play. a little is good. but very addictive like drugs. quitting causes withdrawal symptoms. distractions are everywhere. difficult to focus. being a stone is not a solution. it will still get attacked by agents like wind and rain and sun and chemicals. hurdles. more like mountains. unable to climb without training. crawling gets you nowhere. lethargy. inertia. sloth. excuses! training can't commence. breathlessness and fatigue overcoming. the peak is so far. the final test. dig deep! determination. perseverance. dilligence. consistency. balance. agility. not mere words. put them into action. show everyone. the shark is far but its speed is fast. imminent danger lurking. maintain safety distance rather than fight straight on. swim hard. swim fast. hurry before the train leaves! leave. leave. leave.

it's been more than a month since the last post! kinda lost the passion to do up my blog. getting tired of the design but too lazy to renovate the blog. now most of my thoughts are faithfully written in my ocs journal. part of the motivation to cont. writing in this journal must be the blown up picture of liv tyler which i've pasted on the front cover.

much has happened since section field camp. will not be able to raconte all of it. so i'll just update what has happened recently. got into med at nus. received my lsa (med) too. so together with my other successful friends, dick and han boon, i'll be reporting to nee soon camp tommorow where hq medical corp is located. sadly left my platoon mates at foxtrot wing. it was a very enriching experience which started off as i led the platoon as cpc. much has happened and we've survived the tough times. things are going to be tougher but i'm sure all of us will be able to survive. we have matured and soon, we'll become leaders in our own field. now that i won't be going through army life with you hope that we'll still meet up some day and you can update me with some happenings in foxtrot wing.

i've met really wonderful new friends at foxtrot wing, people like kent, johnson, zhenxian, daniel seng, jun bin, zhifa, samson and my buddy for 2 terms, galvin phua! these people are really fun to be with and they add to the vibrancy of the wing. of course there are those dislikable and 'wayang' ones whom i will not mention. hope you guys will contribute to better the wing and not to its downfall.

the last week i spent at foxtrot was one of the best. had lots of fun playing frisbee and helping out in tug-of-war. hope you guys do well at the ocs carnival! passed all my tests and survived the boring lectures. and it all culminated to the finale, school happy hour! free flow of beer, kahlua, whiskey and coke. partying, dancing, laughing our heads off during the games and when zhenxian was drunk. oh man... what an experience! it was my second time that i got so high in my life. i was high but responsible enough to control my drinking. i think the highlight for me would be my participation in the games.
my platoon mates forced me to take part since it was my last week and i, already high at that time, sportingly took part. in retrospect, if i wasn't high i doubt i would have participated. the participants all stood at front, with some anxiety in us, as we didn't know what to expect. "the participants are to blow a balloon and the one who blows the biggest one wins. however, it isn't any ordinary balloon.. they are to use condoms!" with that, a roar erupted in the crowd. i was stunned! i've never done this in my life! as the others blew with such enthusiasm and vigour, i blew it cautiously and hestitantly. the air kept escaping and the lubricant was disgusting on the lips. my condom inflated and deflated, just as unsure as i was. a few pops of the condoms confirmed the disqualification of a few of the participants. when the final countdown began, i concentrated and tried to blow with all my might.... and i emerged as 1 of the 2 winners. haha... i can inflate a big condom! i can say with pride that i'm a 'condom blower champion'! haha.. with that victory also came a borders voucher card. and so ended a fabulous week.

not sure what's in stored for us tomorrow. hope it'll be fun!

came back from section field camp yesterday and it totally sucks! it was the most xiong field camp i've had. the section training was ok, quite fun doing fire movement and quick attack. but it was the ex. greensleeves which totally killed us. it is a controlled navigation exercise( followed by an instructor) and we were supposed to find 4 day check pts and 3 night ones. the freaking SAW was pissing me off because it was too long, trapping me together with the long roots of trees. the signal set is freaking heavy and causes us to get stuck in overhanging branches. and it didn't help that we have an instructor whom my entire section dislikes. ok shall not elaborate on him. *unsafe* the freaking tekong forest has so many hidden ant nests which can be activated anytime we are not careful, causing 'ant rain' to pour on us. the spiders are everywhere and the weather is so hot! had to tahan my heat rash for 3 freaking days! the feeling totally sucks. imagine the tingling feeling between pain and itch. imagine a million ants crawling on your back just beneath your skin such that you can do anything to them. imagine pins and needles prickling you. imagine red bumps on your body so dense, you thought you were born with red toad skin. even now i'm trying my best to resist the itch so badly. good thing it's getting better.

not all was bad about field camp. my section is bonding pretty well, esp. after ex. tenderfoot( uncontrolled navigation exercise). we had lots of fun 'going to holland' (hor lan), bitching about people, scolding the navigator when we seem to be lost and laughing our heads off about stuff which happened along the way. in the end, we found all our checkpts and were the 3rd section to return back to harbouring base. most impt thing is we could have fun and yet still complete our mission unlike in the other ex. when we were kept in a stranglehold and still could not finish the chkpts.

i am not looking forward to the other field camps.

had a really memorable time the past week. i planned it so well that at the end of this block leave, i can sit down and say 'wow, what a great week!'
lost my touch on writing and describing in an interesting way. so i shouldn't start recounting my week lest i make it sound mundane. anyway, argentina shouldn't have lost to s.africa! the pumas just make the game so exciting, with so many last minute tackles and superb flair. they never give up! yes it has been an enjoyable s'pore sevens. can't wait for next year's to come. hopefully more ruggers will go! my dear j3s, forget about the ticket price and let us party at sevens next year!
going to bed now. all the best to all cadet trainees! may we survive the 10 months of shit and hell and emerge as respected officers.

yesterday was a disappointment! the sun was blazing down on our backs and i thought 'oh man, someone's going to faint in this heat during pop.' it was so hot that cat 2 came on and we could not go onto the parade square for our last rehearsal. finally after all the sharply executed 'henta-kakis', we moved to our form up point(FUP) all ready to march in proudly. exactly at that moment, dark billowing clouds galloped across to our location. lightning flashed like a magnificent fireworks display. it seemed like perfectly normal convectional rain, which usually is just a quick downpour. i assumed we only need wait for a while, after that we can surely resume the parade. however, after only 15 min of waiting, our csm told us to remove our rifle buckles and pile up the rifles. what the hell! after all the rehearsals, the parade will not go on? i was sorely disappointed. kianleong was too. how often do we get the chance to march in the company, giving commands proudly and confidently? we rehearsed so hard, getting f so many times by ssm, going for extra henta kaki drills because we can't mark time together and in the end, we didn't have the chance to throw our jockey caps. what a sad ending for our pop. the only good thing about being a prize winner is that we get to the front of the queue to take the fast craft. i heard that my buddy only left at 2100.

24km route march was surprisingly easy. i took all necessary precautions, having learnt my lesson after the 16km one. i wore tights, a clean set of long 4, flannalite as my belt (the buckle caused some abrasion) and taped my nipples. the result: i came out of the march unscathed, with absolutely no injuries! i dunno whether it's because our field pack were dummies, stuffed with only air filled ziplock bags, but i felt that it was really easy despite the longer distance. there was sufficient rest, there was food and i wasn't tired.

to the guys who have been saying that my ocs spot has been confirmed. that's totally not true. during the pc interview, my pc told the platoon best and i that we can keep our hopes alive but not too high. so that when we fall it won't be so painful. he said the past 3 company bests, 1 went to sispec, 1 as driver and 1 as storeman and he doesn't know why. anyway although i hate tekong which is so far away from my house, i don't mind sispec. so whether ocs, sispec or even mp. i'll just accept it.

enjoy this block leave all new privates!

things can only get better. somehow by fluke i've become company best! i, rec hong dehan, at one stage was on the verge of downgrading and heading towards the status of ooc, have become company best? that's sure a miracle. thank god for his blessings! truthfully, i don't see myself as best in the company. there are definitely much better candidates out there, i just see myself as having more luck.
there's a disappointment though. i failed my soc. going for the retest next tues. guess my upper body is too weak. i can do all the legs stuff, but swinging trainer is posing a big problem. i'm always trying many times until my skin peels. now i can only wait for my blisters to heal and try to learn all the different techniques people use. i must pass with flying colours! the rafflesian spirit will live on.
now's our last book out! next fri is pop! how time flies... we've almost completed everything. next week's just parade rehearsals and the 24 km route march. hopefully it'd not be as tiring as the 16 click one. must remember to wear tights, tape my nipples and lubricate my ass so as to prevent abrasion. wouldn't want to be marching like i've been analed during pass out parade. haha.

i'm officially passed my bmt. attained a gold for my ippt! never have i run sub 10 in my 2.4km, not even during rugby season. so getting sub 9.45 was totally unexpected, esp since i had a lot of phlegm that day and was still on antibiotics. i've made it through the only requirement to pass bmt so the others tests i can relax and not be worried. haha.. aren't you guys jealous? my soc test is next sat, failed it once during practice but i must pass the test next week.

last night we had the time of our lives. after finishing the live range in 1 and 1/2 days, we had the entire 1/2 a day to slack around and to clean our rifles. since we had nothing on the schedule, we were allowed to play anything we want. so a few of us went to play touch and i relived the good old touch days we ruggers used to have. though most of my platoon mates who played weren't ruggers, the game was still very fast paced and i got to say it was the most tiring thing in army! hahaha. woke up this morning with aches and yet the morning after my ippt or soc i did not have any aches. weird but true. come to think of it, hawk coy is quite welfare and i love it.

this morning my pc gave us our interview in our bunk and he did it in section level instead of one to one. he said that it was too formal and people were afraid to speak so he decided to do it in section level. i think it's more likely he's slack and doesn't want to waste time doing one by one. haha. (oops, pc better not read this) then i got my 1st good news of the day. i was platoon best. i'm happy with it but not overjoyed. getting back good results later would be the most important. so wish me luck and i hope i can get my second good news of the day.

Yay! I'm finally not going to get downgraded in bmt. i can still continue my bmt unless the cardiologist at the military medical institute says otherwise. he better not downgrade me or the 600 bucks spent to see a private specialist just to confirm i'm alright will just go down the drain. there goes ocs and all the vocations i've signed up for. i think navy is fun cos there are opportunities to visit many countries. but don't think my mum wants me to cos i'll be away for long periods. intelligence officer seems interesting too but the scope of what an io does is unknown. guess it's really mystery that is attracting me. oh well i shall take a step at a time. who knows i may not qualify for any of it?

results are due in less than a week's time. i so dont want to collect it. i just know there'll be disappointment although i hope for otherwise. best wishes to all you guys out there! i know the majority of you will be having smiles from one ear to the next.

on the verge of being downgraded but i still went ahead to apply for all the vocations, air force, navy, wso, naval offcer. it's better to sign up now than regret later and realised i've not been downgraded. so fri night, booked out, and went for free dinner and wso talk. sat morn went for wso/pilot check up. was quite surprised as i had failed my pilot com test but somehow they are still doing the pilot med check on me. which meant measuring arm length, thigh length, sitting height ( think i barely made it for this, too tall can't fit in cockpit). well pilot's out for me since i failed the com test. i think among all the people who went for the med check up, i had the most remarks written in my file. broken nose, fractured collar bone, asthma, mvp( mitral valve prolapse) what else? i think at this rate, the moment they see all these remarks, they'll just strike my name off their list. sigh... everything is according to god's will. if it's meant to be it's meant to be.

after the check up, the rest of the day was bad. wanted to go wind surfing but forgot to bring sun block. went all the way to east coast and couldn't surf cos they had some ntu open. all sails gone. alighted the bus and knocked my head on the ceiling. didn't see it cos the front shade of my cap blocked my view. knocked my head once more somewhere but can't remember. all these were enough to piss me off. everyone was still in camp. so got nobody to go out with. in the end wandered in orchard alone. went on an eating spree hoping to lift my spirits but ate the worst tako balls ever! the brand called wow tako at ps. sucks totally. which made me even more pissed. takopachi is still the best! my mood improved when i found a damn cheap adidas cap at og orchard point. then met my parents to eat seafood at long beach. food was good, night life and scenery at east coast even better. cool breeze, nice weather, people roller blading, tandem cycling. if i had a gf i wouldn't mind the both of us just roller blading down east coast or just enjoying a stroll by the beach absorbing the sights and sounds and the smells of bbq smoke. of course it's all just wishful thinking for now.

not bad. another week has passed and another long weekend has arrived. i believe it is the last long weekend as there are no more public holidays from now til pop day. btw to those civilians out there, pop means pass out parade. army is really about all the acronyms. some of the acronyms are really funny. take it from my platoon sergeant, during our last parade he said our batch was his first a level batch. before us were all poly batches. but there was one batch very special. they were phd intake. then he kena shocked, first time he heard got phd intake. after that he realised, phd means poly halfway dropout. wad a cock. yes my sergeants are all very nice people. esp one of them, the most civilised sergeant i've ever seen, also my section commander, sg desmond. he said he has never even uttered a word of vulgarity to a recruit and his aim is to keep it that way. he treats all of us very well, and spends the most time with us, sharing his stories, and one of his reasons for being so nice was that he had very nice sergeants during his bmt and sispec days. and he said that if he is able to influence batch after batch to be nice, the army will become a much better place. quite noble eh?

this week was quite siong. first day was ippt cat exercise. managed to get a silver. met all the gold requirements for static stations. but to get 9.44 for 2.4km to get gold, quite impossible considering even rugby days i've managed a sub 10. did a 10.41 on mon. but think i can shave off the min to get my gold! then circuits, weights and 3 sessions of soc! 2 of them one day after another. quite tiring and many had burst blisters on their hands due to swinging trailer and low rope. well that's it for the week. oh did i say i may be downgraded? if the mo sends the letter, i'll be downgraded and become the lackey of csm. doing all the shit stuff. and then i've to go for recourse. how shit can that be. imagine doing everything again. oh field camp coming soon too. hope it doesn't pour.

book out day! shiok. the feeling is really good. as the army song goes, 'no more soc, no ippt, no more sergeant tekan me, all the doo da day'. yes army cheers and songs are playing in my head repeatedly! i'm being brainwashed! one check one check one check one. kekanan lurus! and all the malay commands. life in there is very rush and we are really the lowest life form in the bmtc. my sergeants are strict but are all jokers, like hokkien ping, wont hesitate to use vulgarities. i tell you, army has really a lot of vulgarities. even high ranking officers also teach us all the acronyms for vulgarities. shit better not say too much about such stuff, later kena charged and i'm dead. my oc will just choke slam me.

i got the cough and stuffed nose in camp, green phlegm in additon to fever, so i went on attn b status for 2 days. didnt' go for route march today. felt quite bad that my platoon mates had to go through it and i didn't. oh and white horse preferred treatment is no longer practised is bull shit. platoon 4 has white horse and their platoon is the slackest. never gets punished at all, while the rest of us always kena. the worst is p01, always kena punished. pity them. oh btw, i'm in hawk coy. but i may be downgraded. so i dunno if i'll be transferred out. but i dont want to, cos i think my company is very good. and i want to try ocs. sigh... i can only hope for the best.

ps pardon my language as it has degraded drastically.

1 more day to soldierhood. how exciting. i've not gotten everything yet, although colin, weijia and i went to beach rd to get our army stuff. the lady there was very nice and friendly and she kept mentioning her goods are cheaper. a few steps after leaving her shop we got attacked by this small malay lady. "aiyo.. why buy so many things? the army will give you credit card to buy stuff. you get cheated already. come come aunty give you my name card." it was scary that they just surprise you and try to make friends with you so that you'll buy from their store. competition is that stiff. well i dont care i think i'll just go back to the same aunty. saves all the trouble.

going to ri later to play bball. and weijia's gonna show me his cutie eurasian judo friend. he kept mentioning it so why not check it out? haha. ok must buy lots of stuff later too, i haven't packed my bag but i intend to stay out late tonight! should i or should i not shave my head first? the thought of the shaver running through so many heads gives me the chills. who knows someone might have an infectious head disease? fifa time beckons! must finish my season! cya.

now i know what it' like to get high. your mind just goes into sort of a stupor. everything you see it's like slow-mo ala matrix. a totally light feeling in your head so it seems like your head is going to fly away from your body. you wanna talk nonsense. but i dont think i spoke lots of nonsense. i was still quite sober to hide the jack daniels from yk until chieh, too busy eating his prawns, let him drink from the bottle when he was drunk! drunk to the bone, that's yk. talking about jack daniels, jd with coke is so damn good. it's the best. it's smooth and not bitter. got to be my fav booze now.

i conclude two types of feelings one can feel when one is drunk. immense ecstacy or downright shit depressed. yk on that night experienced both. when he was drunk TWICE! total madness. all the pictures taken of him were so hilarious. when it's up online, i will place a link on my blog. haha.

yesterday,when we left the place in the morning and everyone most prob went back to sleep, i went home, showered and went to church. i spent the rest of the day wandering around like a zombie because i had probably 1 maybe 2 hours of sleep in the 36 hour period. ok guess i must be prepared for this if i can actually become a doc. 36 hour shifts. bleargh.

ce matin, je lui ai envoye d'une sms poetique. mais elle a juste repondu, 'nice.' c'est tout. elle aime la couleur rose! ma mere aime aussi rose. lendemain, j'acheterai un chemisier rose pour l'anniversaire de ma mere. c'est un secret. gardez-le bien. mon francais est terrible. j'ai passe une demi-heure juste pour faire ceci. et la phrase derniere, j'ai utilise altavista translation. je suis un porc paresseux. je veux acheter un trefle de quatre feuilles pour lui parce qu'elle a les examens de conduite et sat. acheter ou pas acheter?
desole, il y a beaucoup d'erreurs.

today's surfing is summed up in one word. shiok! the last time we are going to windsurfing before enlisting. after we enlist, we'll most prob be too busy or too tired to surf even when we book out. initially, there was hardly a breeze and rain started to fall. terrible day we thought. suddenly wind blew like a gale and i sailed far out almost near the ships. the wind was so strong it was difficult to control the sail and i had to lean quite far back. backbreaking and callus-causing but worth every bit of it. all of us made it back safely to shore too. a great improvement, think we are on the way to becoming pros.

countdown to bald head, freedom lost and new wife- my rifle :
4 days!
enlistment date: 14 jan
time: 1-130 pm
friends enlisting same time, hello we may be bunkmates.

since friday, i've been going to school. (sat and sun included!) that's how much i miss school you may think. no, it's because i've nothing to do! actually, i'm just waiting for someone to ask me out for a date. hahaha. just kidding. yesterday, dick and i spent the entire day at school. spent a few hours playing bball, working out, and a large part of the day stoning.we tried to follow gek's og, together with the crashers bang and jianyang, but somehow i felt damn extra. it isn't our orientation yet we're intruding. that's how i felt. good thing serena, shiwei, isaac yee and jervis bay came much later in the afternoon, and all of us just watched the j1s playing handball. actually we were just looking out for good looking girls la. hahaha. noticed a few but it was just glimpses. dunno where they went after. oh but thought this nanyang girl looked cute and she had a nice healthy tan. know where her og is and tziyang said that she was his neighbour. lucky bastard. too bad, dont think i'll be going to school these few days, esp if i pass my audition. really hope i do! must put on a cool and funky image now.

Bon Annee! Happy New Year!

May I survive bmt and get into ocs. May my family and friends be healthy, happy and safe always. May I get good grades for my A levels. May I get into medicine in nus. May there be world peace and stop this terrorism shit. oh no disease epidemic too. ok this is getting too optimistic. Oh 1 more, may i mature spiritually in God. ok my wishes in the new year. of course there is another wish which i shall not mention online. may it come true.

tmrw's surfing day again! hopefully i dont spend half the time swimming like the other time. oh before that, shall follow my bro to school. look around, work out, run, talk to friends then off to east coast. i'm the black man now. i will get blacker if i decide to meet the vj people at sentosa after surfing. ok shall zzzz now.

bonne nuit ma belle copine.

I'm a surfer dude! wind surfing is so damn fun! but gotta say i'm the least talented among the others. was the last to be able to do self rescue and i kept falling off in the first lesson. you yi is a natural at windsurfing. he just got on it and started to surf when we were still struggling to balance. after lunch and in the 2nd lesson, all of us got the hang of it and could balance really well. the thing is we could go out but we couldn't go back. our good ole funny instructor, robert, had to use the power boat to rescue some of us back. there was one time when the wind was so strong, i surfed really fast, and i felt the sense of satisfactio welling up within me. i guess that's what's going to get me addicted. need to practise more so that i can go further out to the sea where there's stronger wind though i need to learn to come back or my poor arms will die doing the butterfly stroke. guys, next friday is a date!