new asia bar was a cool place! 70 floors above the city, you could see the skyline and have an unobstructed view of the bright lights of the city. good place to chill out or club. do check it out!

wish i had a program or website for mac users to upload photos on blogs easily. so no photos from new asia bar from me. what a waste! the pictures of 2 pretty girls can't be viewed. what a difference when girls bother to dress up. for guys, well no difference so don't bother. ppl, do spend time to take a 2nd look at pancake or indian wife!

beleaguered from all sides. crazy ppl. stoppit before the hypothalamic temperature regulatory system breaks!

i'm more than a meanie. i'm above average.

buy me a spittoon so i can spit. buy me a spittoon so i can spit. cough cough the green man strains. gack gack the thick man resists. whoosh out he goes. swirling and swishing on the bumpy cushion. knocking and banging against hard white walls. expel expel expel the intruder. out you go sticky man! and forever do not return!

but his twin returns and a harder a cough n a harder a gack. oh please go away!


nonstop on radio! ~singapore has got 4 million ppl, 2 million are girls. subtract 1 million who are old, there are still 1 million young ones. how can your grandson not find a gf?~
excerpt from the movie i do i do.

should i or should i not? if i go ahead, things may go wrong. i may be wrong. i'm not even sure. think it is better to hold back until i am.
i've changed. i've learnt to have confidence and courage. but did it come with immaturity? or is this the real me? to be stone or be fun yet immature?

procrastination is my game. slacking is a bane. 5 more weeks to ca. can i learn to balance n manage my time?

congrats to bang! one foot in already. the other foot just needs you not to screw up. of course u won't. after all the salsa training, your feet should be sure and steady. those were the days, when we were complaining. now you've left jasper, yau hong and i to whine amongst ourselves. all the best!!!! you're the man!

xingning left for melbourne today. have fun studying there! wish i could go overseas too. anyone wants to go europe with me after professional exams?

i'm lazy to update my blog. what reason is there for me to put in entries each day? i think i'll just write entries when i actually get about doing some work.

anyway latest things that i've done:
went to cambodia and back alive.
slacking around too much
going out too much. wild wild wet, fisherman's village, ocean's twelve, cosy bay. what next? new asia bar?
went for mandarin church service.
attended commissioning parade.

aim for the moon, fall among the stars.
i'll treat you if i ever see a shooting star again.

Thank you victor for organising such a successful bbq @ ecp! i'm sure everyone had loads of fun.
it was a good crowd of about fifty people where everyone let their hair down after weeks of studying for the cas.
i think after friday's bbq, we would have known a few more people in med fac. i for one now know who is meng chon and andy and teresa marie. it's amazing how med fac is so small yet we don't even know half of m1. i hope through all these activities all of us can get to know each other better.

when i reached there i was dismayed by the turn out. i thought oh no, it would be a failure cos i only saw like 6 people max at the pits with no sign of bbq preparation. good thing it turned out that the early birds were actually cycling or rollerblading along east coast. when i came back from renting my own pair of blades, the food were already sizzling on the pit and people were chit chatting and helping themselves to the food.

it's comforting to know that there is the fun side of medicine besides academic pursuits. exchanging of lame comments, laughing at the burnt food the chefs bbqed (i think cooking should be left to the celebrity chefs - mark and dehan), spilling of drinks on bags and banging people into lamp posts with legs spread open were a few highlights. of course there were the lovey dovey couples who fed each other food, whoa how sweet of them! i think medicine should form more couples now that we have our 2nd couple from medicine. it'd be good for our declining birthrate in s'pore.

ok that summarises the bbq @ ecp. do check out the photos taken. bbq

the next outing is on mon 6th dec @ sentosa. think there will be lots of m1 and m2s going. so see you there!

Dehan's Schedule for next 2 weeks:
Sun 5th Dec- checking out of pgp

Mon 6th Dec- Sentosa

Tue 7th Dec- 0700-0900 driving circuit
1230-1330 lunch with dean
1530 medical appt

Wed 8th Dec- 1000 medical appt/FRS
1200 cooking lesson
late afternoon/evening cambodia packing

Thu 9th Dec- Full day Anat tut with Prof Gopal
1800-2130 UCC ushering

Fri 10th Dec- Estimated late afternoon/evening cambodia briefing

Sat 11th Dec- FREE!
Sun 12th Dec- FREE!
Mon 13th Dec- 0830-1300 FRS presentation
Tue 14th Dec- Departure for Cambodia!
14th Dec-4th Jan Cambodia

Calling all friends! It would be good if i can meet up with you since i won't be around for xmas and the new year. i can't go for any parties or gatherings. so check my schedule and contact me soon!

Post CA1

Yay! it's finally over. 2 weeks of studying in the library and it's over! The exams didn't go too well but i'm just glad it's over. So now it's playing for a while and preparing for cambodia! Haven't had so much fun in a long time.
Right after exams, off we went to karaoke at partyworld. As sleazy a place as it can get, just reminds me of the malaysian hotel where we stayed during rugby tour where there were prostitutes and 'transies' hanging around in the dimly lit corners of the lobby. but it's the crowd that that we hang out with that counts right? getting all excited and crazy during the choruses with daniel was really fun. i think the best song rendition by us was the 'wayne yap, never give up!' song. it's so catchy and fun to see whiny wayne so pissed off. haha...

then it was the incredibles time! loved every moment of it! thought the pixar animators were great in giving each cartoon a unique character. ooooh... the hair looked so real too! the technology is really improving by leaps and bounds. i was really amused by all the weird objects elastigirl can transform herself into, esp when she became a boat with dash sprinting his ass off as the propeller. what a sight! i like dash's character best. loud, motor mouth, cool running style and ability to run on water made him so adorable! but i think the most shocking part was seeing the baby become evil! it's a demon baby! so young and it is able to change into a demon and a fireball? what bad influences it must have been exposed to.

anyway don't you agree the sheep in boundin' looks like middle sheep aka zhong yang?

i am going to abandon my com for the next 2 weeks cos i just realised that i need to complete a topic a day to barely finish studying for ca1. which is quite impossible considering that i'm really slow. so if you see me online tell me to get back to my books! all the best to the medics for the coming ca!!

bud>thanks bud! all the best for your a's too! what happened to your blog?
mandy>yay!!! saya tak cakap melayu. good!! we need to find more people! i think optimum number is 4.

a bientot dans deux semaines!

hey check out the links in the 'mes photos' section.
just uploaded a few.

oh get well soon rabblion!

anyone wants to go backpacking in europe next year?
i've to plan early cos i only have the 1st month as holiday. the 2 months before school starts it'll be attachments at hqmc.
we've to fit around the funny open book exam which is right smack in the middle of may. so anyone interested?
france and england will highly confirmed destinations. how about spain too?

think i'm getting my mood for studying back! Merci Dieu! although it's still quite slow. was very motivated to study, so when yahu hong suggested camping overnight at yih to study, i agreed immediately. somehow i wasn't sleepy when i was studying though there was a point when i felt really sian staring at the testis, scrotum and penis. yau hong on the other hand, kept dozing off, therefore we decided to sup at munchie monkey's.

my first time there and i'm amazed at the menu they serve. Related to the spageddies restaurant, it serves pasta, pizza, alochol and even escargot!!! i must try the escargot someday. ya so yau hong had to vienna's hotdog, while i was contented with my tuna and cheese foccacia. i would have very much preferred it to be mushroom and cheese foccacia, but tuna did just fine. the indian guy who served us looked really scary as he was quite big, had a beard(or moustache can't remember) and golden earrings. his voice was low and rough too, giving the impression of a gangster. in the end, he turned out to be quite friendly. when yau hong and i were brushing our teeth in the morning, he actually chatted with us. so one cannot judge someone too quickly!

we decided to take a hour nap and se lever at 4.15. but you know once we planted our heads on the sofa, it was over... the alarm couldn't wake us up. so we ended waking up 4 hours later and it was time to leave for lecture. what a night of studying!

word of advice: if you want to study at yih, make sure you bring more than a jacket. you need 2!!! wear pants if you can too cos they are out to freeZe you while you are mugging.

went to church today after absenting myself for months. it always feels good to be in the church. you'll feel calm, relaxed and your thoughts become clearer. however, i couldn't keep awake during the entire duration of the sermon. feel quite bad after. as usual, i don't know anybody in the church. so when my uncle talks to his many friends, i'd just stand in one corner or just let myself wander to look at the notice boards. danny's the only person i know there but he has his own group of youth fellowship friends so i'm often by myself. i'm thinking of finding another church. maybe i'll pop by to daniel's church soon since it's similar to my present conservative, fundamental one.

these days i'll reverting back to my introverted self. rugby changed me in the sense that i became louder and a little more 'wild'. now i'm inclined to just sit down at a table and not talk to my friends. i'll keep really quiet and just listen their crapping and jokes. of course i'll laugh along and comment here and there but i don't engage myself wholeheartedly in the conversation. another phase of life?

totally didn't do any work this weekend as usual. planned to finish tutorial and pbl but ended up sleeping the entire afternoon. very shiok! think i better get down to some work before je dors.

i think the best thing that happened today was the lunch treat from my brother. we lunched at an indonesian restaurant at bukit timah plaza which had a la carte buffet. the rendang, chilli sotong and fried ginger chicken were delicious! i think the best was the crispy golden chicken. it was so good that we ordered 3 baskets of it! i couldn't get enough of it. oh no i should have taken a photo of it!

my life needs some rejuvenation.

enculer! i just scratched my camera. there's a deep scratch on the front now. Salaud! L'oignon!

feeling damn tired after a slack session of soccer. my fitness doesn't even deserve to be called fitness. now i don't even feel like lifting my butt off the chair to go shower. my head feels tight, like someone is using a plastic bag trying to suffocate my brain. think a nice sleep will would cure this. but i can't. i know i must study but i just don't feel like it. i don't have any goals in life. i don't even see myself completing med school. did i make the right choice? even if i was wrong, i have no choice. unless i want to go db and carry sandbags.

i'm always procrastinating. i'm always complaining. whining seems like my past time. even i get tired of listening to my own complaints. give me or teach me how to find the solutions and i'll gladly stop! primary school was fine. secondary school was manageable. jc was problem ridden but i managed to squeeze through the narrow pores. will i be filtered at this stage? used to set goals like i want to get into ri, i want to get into rjc. in jc, it was kinda difficult to set a fixed goal as there are so many places to choose from. now it's even worse. where do i wanna go?

some people are blessed with beautiful brains. some beautiful faces. beautiful lives too.
my brain is ageing as fast as my face. my body is shifting to a lower gear too. how do i stop this ageing process? anti-oxidants?

now data takes 5 times as long to enter my hard disk. i may understand at the moment. but i'll forget soon after. my short term memory is failing too. i didn't use to forget friend's names. it's not long time friends whom i don't remember, it's the names of my recent friends that i sometimes can't even remember.

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sorry qingyuan. shall rectify it soon. took so long to upload the pictures yet it doesn't work. maybe i'll just boycott shutterfly and use yahoo photos instead. oh does anyone know how to decrease the megapixels of the pictures so that the file size aren't too big?

my new home is the library.
where i eat, sleep, play, enjoy, freeze and mug.

been playing around with fx-7. shall put up the pictures soon.
ok think i should give it a name soon. any good ones?

35% 41% 60% 39%
in order of the fas i've taken. failed 3/4. 2 anat and 1 biochem. what am i to do?

anyone has the entire season of the o.c. 1? to download it from bit torrent, it takes 1265 days. by the time that is finished ryan would have married marissa. and my hair would hopefully be a beautiful mess like sandy's.

Let me introduce to you my babe!


sleek eh? so i'll be putting up more pictures of school, friends and stuff!
do be part of my gallery.

once again... it's been a long time. blogging is so not part of my life anymore. but suddenly thought of it, so i shall post an entry. too much has happened to put down in words. don't have the energy to do so anyway. now in med sch and it's not easy. have always been doing last min work all my life and now found out that i'll be murdered by this old habit of mine. too much new info everyday and leaving everything to a later date has caused a long train of confusion and doubts. brain is working too slowly; can't ingest and digest quick enough. priorities are misplaced. wrong state of mind. play. a little is good. but very addictive like drugs. quitting causes withdrawal symptoms. distractions are everywhere. difficult to focus. being a stone is not a solution. it will still get attacked by agents like wind and rain and sun and chemicals. hurdles. more like mountains. unable to climb without training. crawling gets you nowhere. lethargy. inertia. sloth. excuses! training can't commence. breathlessness and fatigue overcoming. the peak is so far. the final test. dig deep! determination. perseverance. dilligence. consistency. balance. agility. not mere words. put them into action. show everyone. the shark is far but its speed is fast. imminent danger lurking. maintain safety distance rather than fight straight on. swim hard. swim fast. hurry before the train leaves! leave. leave. leave.

it's been more than a month since the last post! kinda lost the passion to do up my blog. getting tired of the design but too lazy to renovate the blog. now most of my thoughts are faithfully written in my ocs journal. part of the motivation to cont. writing in this journal must be the blown up picture of liv tyler which i've pasted on the front cover.

much has happened since section field camp. will not be able to raconte all of it. so i'll just update what has happened recently. got into med at nus. received my lsa (med) too. so together with my other successful friends, dick and han boon, i'll be reporting to nee soon camp tommorow where hq medical corp is located. sadly left my platoon mates at foxtrot wing. it was a very enriching experience which started off as i led the platoon as cpc. much has happened and we've survived the tough times. things are going to be tougher but i'm sure all of us will be able to survive. we have matured and soon, we'll become leaders in our own field. now that i won't be going through army life with you hope that we'll still meet up some day and you can update me with some happenings in foxtrot wing.

i've met really wonderful new friends at foxtrot wing, people like kent, johnson, zhenxian, daniel seng, jun bin, zhifa, samson and my buddy for 2 terms, galvin phua! these people are really fun to be with and they add to the vibrancy of the wing. of course there are those dislikable and 'wayang' ones whom i will not mention. hope you guys will contribute to better the wing and not to its downfall.

the last week i spent at foxtrot was one of the best. had lots of fun playing frisbee and helping out in tug-of-war. hope you guys do well at the ocs carnival! passed all my tests and survived the boring lectures. and it all culminated to the finale, school happy hour! free flow of beer, kahlua, whiskey and coke. partying, dancing, laughing our heads off during the games and when zhenxian was drunk. oh man... what an experience! it was my second time that i got so high in my life. i was high but responsible enough to control my drinking. i think the highlight for me would be my participation in the games.
my platoon mates forced me to take part since it was my last week and i, already high at that time, sportingly took part. in retrospect, if i wasn't high i doubt i would have participated. the participants all stood at front, with some anxiety in us, as we didn't know what to expect. "the participants are to blow a balloon and the one who blows the biggest one wins. however, it isn't any ordinary balloon.. they are to use condoms!" with that, a roar erupted in the crowd. i was stunned! i've never done this in my life! as the others blew with such enthusiasm and vigour, i blew it cautiously and hestitantly. the air kept escaping and the lubricant was disgusting on the lips. my condom inflated and deflated, just as unsure as i was. a few pops of the condoms confirmed the disqualification of a few of the participants. when the final countdown began, i concentrated and tried to blow with all my might.... and i emerged as 1 of the 2 winners. haha... i can inflate a big condom! i can say with pride that i'm a 'condom blower champion'! haha.. with that victory also came a borders voucher card. and so ended a fabulous week.

not sure what's in stored for us tomorrow. hope it'll be fun!

came back from section field camp yesterday and it totally sucks! it was the most xiong field camp i've had. the section training was ok, quite fun doing fire movement and quick attack. but it was the ex. greensleeves which totally killed us. it is a controlled navigation exercise( followed by an instructor) and we were supposed to find 4 day check pts and 3 night ones. the freaking SAW was pissing me off because it was too long, trapping me together with the long roots of trees. the signal set is freaking heavy and causes us to get stuck in overhanging branches. and it didn't help that we have an instructor whom my entire section dislikes. ok shall not elaborate on him. *unsafe* the freaking tekong forest has so many hidden ant nests which can be activated anytime we are not careful, causing 'ant rain' to pour on us. the spiders are everywhere and the weather is so hot! had to tahan my heat rash for 3 freaking days! the feeling totally sucks. imagine the tingling feeling between pain and itch. imagine a million ants crawling on your back just beneath your skin such that you can do anything to them. imagine pins and needles prickling you. imagine red bumps on your body so dense, you thought you were born with red toad skin. even now i'm trying my best to resist the itch so badly. good thing it's getting better.

not all was bad about field camp. my section is bonding pretty well, esp. after ex. tenderfoot( uncontrolled navigation exercise). we had lots of fun 'going to holland' (hor lan), bitching about people, scolding the navigator when we seem to be lost and laughing our heads off about stuff which happened along the way. in the end, we found all our checkpts and were the 3rd section to return back to harbouring base. most impt thing is we could have fun and yet still complete our mission unlike in the other ex. when we were kept in a stranglehold and still could not finish the chkpts.

i am not looking forward to the other field camps.

had a really memorable time the past week. i planned it so well that at the end of this block leave, i can sit down and say 'wow, what a great week!'
lost my touch on writing and describing in an interesting way. so i shouldn't start recounting my week lest i make it sound mundane. anyway, argentina shouldn't have lost to s.africa! the pumas just make the game so exciting, with so many last minute tackles and superb flair. they never give up! yes it has been an enjoyable s'pore sevens. can't wait for next year's to come. hopefully more ruggers will go! my dear j3s, forget about the ticket price and let us party at sevens next year!
going to bed now. all the best to all cadet trainees! may we survive the 10 months of shit and hell and emerge as respected officers.

yesterday was a disappointment! the sun was blazing down on our backs and i thought 'oh man, someone's going to faint in this heat during pop.' it was so hot that cat 2 came on and we could not go onto the parade square for our last rehearsal. finally after all the sharply executed 'henta-kakis', we moved to our form up point(FUP) all ready to march in proudly. exactly at that moment, dark billowing clouds galloped across to our location. lightning flashed like a magnificent fireworks display. it seemed like perfectly normal convectional rain, which usually is just a quick downpour. i assumed we only need wait for a while, after that we can surely resume the parade. however, after only 15 min of waiting, our csm told us to remove our rifle buckles and pile up the rifles. what the hell! after all the rehearsals, the parade will not go on? i was sorely disappointed. kianleong was too. how often do we get the chance to march in the company, giving commands proudly and confidently? we rehearsed so hard, getting f so many times by ssm, going for extra henta kaki drills because we can't mark time together and in the end, we didn't have the chance to throw our jockey caps. what a sad ending for our pop. the only good thing about being a prize winner is that we get to the front of the queue to take the fast craft. i heard that my buddy only left at 2100.

24km route march was surprisingly easy. i took all necessary precautions, having learnt my lesson after the 16km one. i wore tights, a clean set of long 4, flannalite as my belt (the buckle caused some abrasion) and taped my nipples. the result: i came out of the march unscathed, with absolutely no injuries! i dunno whether it's because our field pack were dummies, stuffed with only air filled ziplock bags, but i felt that it was really easy despite the longer distance. there was sufficient rest, there was food and i wasn't tired.

to the guys who have been saying that my ocs spot has been confirmed. that's totally not true. during the pc interview, my pc told the platoon best and i that we can keep our hopes alive but not too high. so that when we fall it won't be so painful. he said the past 3 company bests, 1 went to sispec, 1 as driver and 1 as storeman and he doesn't know why. anyway although i hate tekong which is so far away from my house, i don't mind sispec. so whether ocs, sispec or even mp. i'll just accept it.

enjoy this block leave all new privates!

things can only get better. somehow by fluke i've become company best! i, rec hong dehan, at one stage was on the verge of downgrading and heading towards the status of ooc, have become company best? that's sure a miracle. thank god for his blessings! truthfully, i don't see myself as best in the company. there are definitely much better candidates out there, i just see myself as having more luck.
there's a disappointment though. i failed my soc. going for the retest next tues. guess my upper body is too weak. i can do all the legs stuff, but swinging trainer is posing a big problem. i'm always trying many times until my skin peels. now i can only wait for my blisters to heal and try to learn all the different techniques people use. i must pass with flying colours! the rafflesian spirit will live on.
now's our last book out! next fri is pop! how time flies... we've almost completed everything. next week's just parade rehearsals and the 24 km route march. hopefully it'd not be as tiring as the 16 click one. must remember to wear tights, tape my nipples and lubricate my ass so as to prevent abrasion. wouldn't want to be marching like i've been analed during pass out parade. haha.