oh no... wasted day. was awaken by my mum's phone call at nine thirty. my mum will be bringing my aunt and cousin who just returned from canada to my room in 10 min! whoa... couldn't show them a dirty room right? jumped out of bed... brushed teeth and tried to clean up a little. then the phone rang again.... oh no... can't do much now... have to pick them up from the carpark. so i picked them up and gave my aunt a hug.. oh my! haven't seen her for so long and she has adopted an ah soh prc straight hair!! kept my comments to myself though... couldn't be rude to my senior right? hahaha... sigh in the end they helped me vacuumed and mopped my room.

kept falling asleep in the library. so i went home and watched the oc dvd hanboon lent me. oh man... they are addictive! told myself i'd watch only 1 episode ended up watching 5 in a row! n still have more than 20 more to go. i think i better hide them so i'll only watch them after pros. rich kids exciting life babes hunks. sounds too good to be true eh? wonder if there is really such a county.

oh man... my ex indian wife has rejected our invitation to go on our diving trip! she has decided to go with the honeys and toe to taiwan. even after half an hour of begging, cajoling, reverse psychology, self pity, she still decides to go with the girls. sorry guys... you all are not hunk enough. she didn't even think twice on making up her mind. better up your hunk factor by learning more dishes, be more gentlemanly, learn smooth talking and have cooler attitude. hold more food parties! so with no da sao or girls coming along, i quote her 'we'll be having unadulterated boy fun!'

rj>eh.. i was trying to save your face... why you shoot yourself in the ass?

bang>whoa finally you can! so your comp decided to upgrade itself ah?

zy>cos u were bloated with beer! not drinking ended up drinking the most...

liana>oh ya.. maybe we can hold the next potluck at your place! jade!~

lynn>ya we missed you! we were saying oh man.. we need lynn! she'll help us wipe the food up!

renjun's chinchilla

renjun's chinchilla
Originally uploaded by dehanh.

mo's soft, cuddly and ticklish!!!!

@ RENJUN'S

@ RENJUN'S
Originally uploaded by dehanh.

gals... eligible bachelors who can cook!!! do consider them!

nagging headache. so no mood to blog.

but just wanna say that i'm impressed by the food party at renjun's! din know it's a potluck session... so i turned up with no food but a bottle of thai rum called similan. in the end, there was too much food! typical chinese mentality. always get more food than necessary. got to say that i'm rather useless... the guys all can cook except me! no wonder they are attached and i'm not eh? so i better go learn a few dishes from my mama so that i can impress the girls! hahaha...

the entire party just reminded me of shows i see where a group of friends gather for a fabulous meal at someone's house, something like in naked chef. friends bring bottles of wine then chit chat, exchange tips on cooking, have a good meal and decide on the person who will whip up the next meal. wow... and we're actually doing it now! now... we have 2 da sao's already. the next time, will i have da saos for all of my buddies? hopefully so...

jasper, hunky, renjun and zhongyang. jia you!!! hopefully i'll see more da saos the next time.

chefs:
jasper-popiah
renjun-mozzarella cheese sausage, barbequed smoky mushroom and onion soup
zhongyang-fried rice
dickson-some italian tomato and foccacia bread
rachel-potato salad
jianbang-longan beancurd
amanda-roast chicken
yijun-cheese cake

last pbl!

last pbl!
Originally uploaded by dehanh.

our pbl class with sabrinah the secretary witch.
artist- isaac seow

finally! we've finished our last pbl. after so much changing and waiting and raging angers, we've gone thru a rather crappy pbl. the dr actually forgot about our lesson so he came in not knowing how pbl is conducted and what the case was about. oh well... we did go thru some physiology regarding kidney and heart and it was over! not that pbl is very lousy, it's just that holding it at alexandra hospital was an absolute disaster due to admin problems. well that's over... and hopefully that is the last of sabrinah the secretary witch.

the seminar room was like a fully equipped house. really nice place! sofas.. an entire kitchen, nice ass washing toilet bowls, waiting high chairs outside the toilet and computer room. it looked so comfortable that isaac went ransacking the kitchen and made himself a nice mug of coffee. only that it belonged to the cleaning lady! n she was unhappy that some crappy pseudo angmoh who can't spk mandarin for nuts stole her coffee! isaac then used his halting mandarin and replied.. i only took one sip, you may have it back! if i was the aunty i'd have slapped him that smuck ass.

so while waiting for the dr (he was forty five min late i think), we played pepsi cola at the large carpetted area. wah... the last time i played was maybe pri sch? so the only ones who had an actual childhood played(daniel, wayne, isaac and i). the rest just sat and watched. sigh.. anyway.. we came up with so many stances whether attacking or defending. isaac had the flying helicopter kicks, daniel had the clamping leg technique, wayne and his si jiao cao tian(4 limbs in the sky) defense move and me with eagle spreads his wings defense. haha.. shit man. really damn fun!

ended off with taupoking chris ho. don't you see chris ho so fair and flabby, easily bullied. oh man... he still has his canoeist genes in him. bloody strong! i was supposed to pin him down but he immediately went into fetal position so in the end i held the most weight from the taupoking. wah... looks like he had lotsa experience. must have been taupoked lotsa times in canoeing last time... know how to defend against already. nvm... next time we'll get jianhong to pin you down!

ok ended off the day with dinner. the food was ok la. got a good laugh from 'dunno how to tie hair's' uniform and the photo in the digicam. felt damn stupid cos i suddenly cannot remember lotsa stuff and just forgot how to put what i want to say into words. there's just something wrong with me. totally screwed up. well just blame it on head trauma from rugby then :) . early alzheimer's? shit man.. touch wood.

tmr's play day! soccer then party at renjun's! so must have late night tonight. going to jog then finish up protein metab now! pls scold me if i didn't finish protein.

Wa Jie by Jay Chou
heard the song at my ushering event. it's really very nice! but too bad the lyrics are too chim for me to remember. Uploaded the jay chou version just for you. so click on the link just below sweet hour of prayer and go file>save as.. to save it into your com!

i'm dumbo the sniffling elephant. my nose feels so ticklish that it's as if i've a feather up my nose. the ticklish sensation is going up the nasolacrimal duct and smarting my eyes too! now.. i just wanna chop off my nose to tear out the 3 concha!

Paulaner's n Prego

0.5l of good stuff man. although it contributes to my round belly, it was quite good. got a little light headed and crazy. but from my craziness, i started a string of conversation which was eye opening. sigh... i'm the only one left. but it's ok... not too worried!

thanks lynn for the prego's lobang man. cos we took a trip down tonight and got ourselves a bunch of goodies. you are officially my makan informer! while waiting in line to buy the pastries, charming yau hong struck up a conversation with an indian lady and her family. their family is like those high class rich kind, so to go up to their level, hunky enunciated every word so well and spoke so perfectly! hahaha... the conversation was the funniest. the indian family and all of us began suaning bang about being so sweet and nice to his gf and how we should all learn from him. hahaha... ya i think we really should! wish i had someone who does nice stuff for me too. :)

can't wait for wed! jasper remember to bring howl's moving castle besides your bang guang!

shall add chatterbox with tag board. wanna see which one is better. although tag board failed me the whole of last week, it has been quite faithful and useful on the job. so i shall not reject it totally cos of a minor setback. chatterbox will assist tag board and i'll see which is better.

hey everybody! those who wanna get your hands on apple products esp the most coveted ipod, ipod mini and ipod shuffle, don't purchase it at the public price. go online and get it cos it's cheaper and there is free shipping and free laser engraving! tertiary students will get educational discounts when you purchase mac products. so don't be silly and pay that little bit extra. go to www.apple.com.sg then education. this is where you can purchase a 6gb mini for 400 bucks. so go think and compare prices before purchasing!

hitch was fantastic! had a good laugh. really glad that one of my few play day outings before exams turned out well. thank god! thanks for helping me not have severe diarrhea too. only mild one with a burning ass. thanks! :)

heard that genevieve saw ruien the other day, so i thought today would be a good day too, and brought along my camera so that the moment i see her i'll go ask her for a photo or no. she's so cute! jasper's linda from chase is not bad too la. huge eyes with a little ptosis. so pretty! hahaha.. ok typing this while half asleep.

so good night! need to wake up early to organise ifg touch.

tubby> no. my belly is still there cos i pigged out even though i exercised.
eternal eyes> stay in hall la. i want a different experience. stay in pgp 2 sems already! so let's go hall...

Why is Tag-Board down??? irritating.. anyone knows an alternative to tagboard?

whole body aching from gym and running. thanks jasper for the company! we should do it more often to keep fit. i'm so going to be paralysed by aches tmr. argh...

It's finally over! CAs are over. but i'm not rejoicing. am disappointed with myself actually. what happened to me? why have i allowed myself to be in this state. where is the RAFFLESIAN SPIRIT of excellence? going to an exam only knowing the tip of the iceberg of syllabus is not what makes a doctor. you'll kill patients in the future, if you can even get that far! pull up those socks of yours. Lord please let me pick up myself and catch up with my batch mates!

FLABBERGASTED
shock of my life when i saw 8.57am on my watch. rubbed my eyes... thought i was in a dream. but NO! but wait... physio starts at 10 right? then again... it's at 9am! PHYSIO PAPER STARTS AT 9!
no time! jumped out of bed. grabbed my bag, bottle, matric card, cap and jacket and rushed to the bus stop!
Good thing bus frequency is high... how i appreciate living at PGP now... so ran all the way to COFM and planted my ass on the seat at 9.10am. my brain felt numb during the entire exam. must be the shock i received the moment i woke up.

MORAL of the story: when 2 alarms don't work, set 3.

1 down. 2 more to go. managed to pass biochem by guessing and eliminating chim looking answers. well actually i think most people passed. ya n in medicine, getting a pass is no big deal when everyone's so smart. it's crazy to know the bell shaped curve for grades is shifted so right that it can't be considered bell shaped anymore. sigh... so must work harder for pros, esp when it's essay, so no more guessing!

physio is one big headache. it's really fun to learn and understand and discuss. but when so many concepts and pathways are stored in the tiny brain of mine, they somehow get amalgated. well at least it's fun! i think it's the most fun subject. doing well is another matter. so whether it's Na-K ATPase or Na- H antiport protein. i'll just leave it to God.
Received a quote from dee.

Psalms 18:2- The Lord is my rock, my fortress, and my deliverer. My God is my rock, in whom I take refuge.

So find solace in God! Thanks denise!

dee dee(the one who posted the tag)> hahaha... case of mistaken identity! dee dee was meant to be denise. so i've 2 dee dees now? i think u just be hot spots la k? hahaha...

toe> so confident of physio eh? spent the whole afternoon online. hahaha... get back to work han sis!~

hb> just go view my source then put in your template. the song must be uploaded online first though. i use geocities to upload mine. sigh... can't listen to the song now. bandwidth taken up....

less than 12 hours to biochem paper already!
don't really care already. i'll do whatever i can now and pia right after CA! whoever wants to join me can find me at cubicle number 5, Medical Library ground floor.

dee dee> heya dee! can i add a link to your blog? thanks! hopefully i'll see ya after my CAs during outing.

qy> u evil man! the idea was formulated in the evil mind of yours and carried out by your sinister hands. so don't blame it on others!

buddy phua> hello mr phua! nice of you to drop by. thanks! good luck in your top secret training. haha..

sel> yes salt! hey the europe trip i think it's too big a group already. confirm got big group syndrome... waste lotsa time. so maybe i'll go next year? haha... feel like going for the indonesia tsunami relief thing.

ALL THE BEST FOR CAS!

anyone can hear the song i put up?

Difficult Fasting

2 days ago, wanted to discipline myself by fasting and praying but it was no easy experience. once every so often, liana and jirong will say that they are fasting. Now i truly know how difficult it is. I realised that usually in between meals, i would have snacks or pop candies into my mouth to tide me through. So during the fasting period, I kept thinking about food! My mouth was itching for something to put into it. Had to suppress it a little by drinking lots of water. Cephalic phase of GIT kept kicking in and gastric juices churned and swished in my empty stomach. I couldn't concentrate on studying at all! Wow.. if after missing 1 meal, i can feel like this, what about those who have no food elsewhere? So thank God for the bountiful food i have to make me this big. Should try it again with more prayer, to remind me how fortunate i am!

SEL= salt in french

Irritating salty qy really pissed me off! Had my dinner at coffee grounds and he added salt to my funghi soup w/o my knowledge! Drank it happily while i was engrossed in conversation. Only when i've nearly finished it then did he break the news. Grrr.. so post- prandially, my thirst centre was stimulated and i had to keep drinking water! my lips cracked and after the huge intake of water, i had to piss so much. Dunno how i managed to drink the salty liquid! Watch out QY! u and me will become enemies!!! hahaha... only after i pass my driving will i be nice to you the bad role model!

CA!

1 more day to CA. chiong sexual reproduction now! argh!!!!!

received news that i have a choice of doing a month of attachment instead of two. so i can have company when i go to europe now! however, more choices have opened and i'm put into another quandary. bridgette is inviting me to go to indonesia for tsunami restoration. i'm very tempted to go and that would put me back by 800 bucks. if i go ahead with the europe trip with friends, another 3000 would be gone. diving trip with windsurfing gang 500 bucks. so more spending of money when i'm earning a month less of pay. how how?

Shall try fasting tomorrow. Have never tried it before. I've eaten so much all my life that when i've stopped exercising, my belly is growing. not bad a belly actually... with long strands of hair to attempt to cover an otherwise naked surface. remember those days when i used to squeeze tummy into folds and see how many beef patties i could get in my hamburger belly. now he's back and piling on the patties, think the record now is four. patty no. 5 on the way. it doesn't help that the dean's office is having a buffet spread these 3 days and all of us can help ourselves to leftovers. they have not 1 meal but four meals a day!!! not sure if there was breakfast, but there was brunch, lunch, tea break and dinner! which is why i should fast tmr. it'll be hard on my first try... but it'll be good to train my discipline. fast and pray to make me a whole man. fast and pray to hold my belly growth.

ASS! CHEE KEN!!!
sianz....

ok i know now it's time to work hard. but i need to settle some leisure stuff too! lynn and gang are going to europe in late may while selene and hanboon are going to phuket right after pros. so now i've no kaki to go europe with!

i need to go right after pros like maybe 18 apr onwards so that i can come back by pdcp which is in mid may. can't go in june or july cos i've got army attachment. so ANYONE INTERESTED TO JOIN THE LONELY BOY? i don't mind subsidising a bit if i can find just 1 partner. deciding between free and easy and contiki travels. can get ticket to london for 698 ++ from contiki by this fri 4 mar. so anyone up for it?????

those who are borderline in studies like me, we can pia right after ca for the entire month!

FAILED.
jittery. nervous. unsettled. my nerves just got the better of me.
my lesson just before the test went smoothly. yet i mounted kerb, almost killed a motorcylist from oncoming traffic, slid down the slope a little, supposedly didn't look at my rear windscreen when parking (which i did) and dragged the gears too long, too slow in changing during the test. ass! when i mounted kerb in the circuit, it was OVER! what use was there to continue driving? so with nothing to lose, i was more relaxed and drove with little mistakes. But what use was there??? i've failed! Immediate failure! but huo bu dan xing. so i had to have 2 immediate failures!

it seems so normal for people to say, it's just a driving test. so many people have failed it. so why get so upset over it? ya sure... but it's just that i've never failed in any major exam or test in my life! small tests sure... but not any important ones. it's just so upsetting! it's not that i dunno how to drive. it's not that i've not prepared for it. in fact, so much money and time has been put into it. yet unsettled nerves just destroyed everything. pissed off and disappointed!

so sad me decided to go to west mall to find some solace and happiness. tried food therapy. ate ice cream. and other junk. didn't care about the money. now i know why depressed people sometimes stuff themselves with food. chocolate releases endorphins which make u a lil happy. warm food gives you the physical warmth when there is no human warmth (hug) needed to feel better. the food helped temporarily and my stomach was stuffed. couldn't find anyone to talk to. so decided to watch movie by myself. only one of 2 times that i've done so. CLOSER. thought it was a comedy. but no, it was some complicated screwed up love relationship among 4 individuals. so troubling. well at least there were good looking people in jude law and nathalie portman. portman is really hot! but quite indecent in the show cos she was a stripper. ya anyway although it was a disturbing show, i felt somewhat better. i now know i'm not the only one who watches movie by myself. there were a few other loners too! hahaha...

after that, went to chinatown to relive some nice memories. stuffed myself with food at food street. food therapy! stumbled into a cool looking shophouse bar called backstage bar which turned out to be the only gay bar in the area. the owner even asked if i was gay! shit man.... now i know a rainbow coloured flag is the symbol for gay. then went to the cheap cd shops at chinatown. bought stef sun and david tao cds for 12 bucks only! retail therapy! next went to the austrian sausage shop to get cheese knaukers from the cool angmoh owner who speaks singlish. exchanged banter with him enough to make me smile.

ended the depressing day with a kind heart. saw a lady having difficulty carrying a haversack and a baggage at buona vista. people with such baggages tend to be foreigners who stay on nus campus, so i offered to carry the baggage. turned out to be really heavy!!! she's a 3rd year arts student who just came back from an education conference in UAE and she had her diving gear which explained the damn heavy bag! been to an overseas conference myself so can relate to her exciting and fun experience. i don't mind going for another of such conferences, meeting international youths and exchanging views and having fun! and from how she described UAE, i don't mind considering it a holiday destination.

wow... what a day. feel much better now. after tonight, sleep therapy will round up and should cure me of my disappointment.