had a really fun v-day!!!

was restless the entire day during lessons in school. supposed to study in library then go for the swinging singles' party at jianhong's house.

ended up going to orchard with ah ngoh. the fun started when we got a lift from violet. thanks violet! her aunty's van is really cool! jasper n i sat at the back where there were so many cushions and soft toys enough to make the back of the van so comfortable. i wouldn't mind getting such a comfortable van in place of any high class automobile. the only prob was i got a little woozy and motion sick from all the turning and bumping as violet got lost getting to orchard! someone get her a gprs for her birthday!

anyway, great retail therapy for lonely boys without dates on v-day! was supposed to just accompany him to shop for shoes, but we ended up buying 3 shirts each! went to john little to find the pink valentino shirt yau hong was wearing today. saw that the shirts were so cheap that we spent hours trying on every shirt we saw. in the end, i settled on a green valentino and green stripey shirt while jas chose a blue valentino and a green tee. hahaha.. then we went on lamenting about us not having dates and that love was all around us. couples, roses and hearts were the theme for the day. they were infesting orchard!!! someone shld ban all of them from orchard.

being sour grapes and envious, we had to resort to flirting with 2 girls at heeren and got our complimentary heart-shaped red n pink balloons. who says 2 guys couldn't walk around with pink n red heart balloons hovering over our heads? hahaha... think everyone thought we were gay! then it was at heeren where we continued our shopping. bodyknits was on sale! n everything was pasar malam cheap. 50 n 70 % off selected items. so a t-shirt cost like less than 15 bucks. where could u find such prices? so we entered the fitting room 5 times, trying on almost every nice shirt! s, m, l, xl. red, blue, brown, black. we tried everything! the poor salesgirl must be wondering why she had to fold endless number of shirts on v-day. hahaha...

after that, rushed down to the airport to send gen off to her vet studies in australia. gave her a red heart balloon, took photos and charmed lil eurasian kids with my heart shaped balloons. so i ended up going home with no heart balloons... sigh.. anyway, at least i made a few children happy!

the highlight for the day was celebrating toh han's birthday in conjunction with the singles' party. taped her mouth up with duct tape to enjoy a wonderful period of silence, then blindfolded her as we led her to her birthday surprise. happy birthday toh han! n splash, she fell into the swimming pool. we couldn't let her off so easily right? so han boon smashed cake into her face! hahaha... well the suffering was all for a good cause as she was touched by the dkny watch that we got her! it must have been a memorable burfday for u toe!

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Happy Valentine's everybody!
Hope it'll be a great day for everyone! Cheers!

moody moody moody.
depressed depressed depressed.
CURED!

ecstatic pizza

ecstatic pizza
Originally uploaded by dehanh.

hey does this look like me? one of the many happy herby places in cambodia.

fisherman's village

fisherman's village
Originally uploaded by dehanh.

here's a nice photo of a warm cosy dinner by the sea. great ambience and sea breeze. had a good time there!

visiting day!! quite a fun day today. went to visit my granduncles, grandaunts and great grand mother! yes i still have a great grand mother, how cool is that? she's going to be 100 soon i think, lost track of her age but she's still quite healthy. sat with her while she talked to me about stuff. i'm glad i know a bit of hainanese and hokkien which helped me a great deal when my relatives speak. ya she complained about my mum not bringing her along when she went to china, complained that she's so old and there is no meaning to live and that the maid refuses to let her drink her xo to improve her blood circulation for fear that she'll get drunk. hahaha... well i actually saw her tipsy side once when she stayed at my place. poured a lil too much alcohol and she started walking sideways!!! hahaha what a sight! oh man... sorry great grand ma, quite rude to laugh at you. anyway... have a great new year! hope you'll visit my house again.

actually heard the entire story of my family's close shave in phuket today. when i first returned and my mum told me the stories, i was quite indifferent. i was more interested in telling my side of the story in cambodia and all the fun i've had. it was only today, when she raconted the entire story to my uncle and aunt that i'm truly thankful to God that they escaped from the gallows of the tidal wave.

thank Lord for letting them stay at the diver's resort at Chalong bay, south east of Phuket and away from the full force of the tsunami. thank God for letting my bros and aunt be far out at sea on their way to snorkelling, where the wave was still small and not yet devastating. thank God for allowing my cousin and uncle to hide behind a rock when they went diving under the sea, and when the current washed them to the surface, they were safe from harm. thank God for keeping my entire family from harm during their stay at Phuket. you're the best!!

Happy New Year!
had the time of my life! woke up at eleven. visited my grandma's house downstairs. received my ang pows. then stoned and slept the entire afternoon away.

i think i can relate to children cos i think like them. i love to act like them and laugh like them. their innocence and pure hearts make them so adorable. my mum just told me that i can interact quite well with children.

in retrospect, i think i do. back in cambodia, i enjoyed playing with the children. being their swing or piggy backer. i'm not inhibited by how childish i look. i just act like them, play like them and have fun like them. seeing them give truly happy smiles is what makes it so enjoyable.

today, at my dad' boss' open house dinner. with the entire place swarming with adults, whom i don't really know what to say to, i felt uneasy n self conscious. to attempt to be sociable, i decided to pick up the nearest girl i saw. a cute girl dressed in pink. hahaha.. this 5 yr old is really intelligent and is not afraid of strangers. she readily opened up after my initial introductory questions. so rachel and i started discussing about ants on the tree, beautiful flowers in the garden, her shaven golden retriever lola, her birthday and the humming bird she saw. my size didn't scare her at all. n i'm glad it didn't. thank you rachel for the company in the uncomfortable setting!

i love children!!!!

new asia bar on the 60th floor!

new asia bar on the 60th floor!
Originally uploaded by dehanh.

1st time at new asia bar! real cool place with a fabulous view.

a rollercoaster ride i've taken today. the queasiness still remains.
my mind is happy that i've taken the ride but not my stomach and intestines.
i wished the 2 evils were not there, leaving only my mind n body.
to enjoy the ups and downs, without the pain and suffering.

i love to sms on my phone, to see the work of art i compose.
but when a button doesn't work, who can i approach?
to use the other buttons, a story can still be told.
but without the finishing touches, the excitement will not unfold.

mc sent this to me.
really cute! some parts a little gross though. have fun!
zhiji

failed as an alarm clock 2nd time in a row! gone were the days when i was an efficient and trustworthy alarm clock. i'm sorry!!! i can't fail on the 3rd time!!!

woke up late so didn't go for mandarin service. went for youth meeting instead. met many new ppl today and had fun getting to know them better. don't mind hanging out with them... now i know why old people still wanna hang out with youths... makes them feel younger!

drum banging is mind bogling. i've absolutely no rhythm n limbs coordination. i can't multi task let alone move my four limbs at different speeds at the same time. now i'm truly amazed how gerald could play the drums so well. ppl lend me your drums! i shall train n learn so that i can finally multi task!

star light. star bright. first star i see tonight. wish i may. wish i might. a shooting star to light the night.
wished for a shooting star. but i guess i could settle for a flickering one with a chick head attached! what a surprise! THANK YOU!

new asia bar was a cool place! 70 floors above the city, you could see the skyline and have an unobstructed view of the bright lights of the city. good place to chill out or club. do check it out!

wish i had a program or website for mac users to upload photos on blogs easily. so no photos from new asia bar from me. what a waste! the pictures of 2 pretty girls can't be viewed. what a difference when girls bother to dress up. for guys, well no difference so don't bother. ppl, do spend time to take a 2nd look at pancake or indian wife!

beleaguered from all sides. crazy ppl. stoppit before the hypothalamic temperature regulatory system breaks!

i'm more than a meanie. i'm above average.

buy me a spittoon so i can spit. buy me a spittoon so i can spit. cough cough the green man strains. gack gack the thick man resists. whoosh out he goes. swirling and swishing on the bumpy cushion. knocking and banging against hard white walls. expel expel expel the intruder. out you go sticky man! and forever do not return!

but his twin returns and a harder a cough n a harder a gack. oh please go away!


nonstop on radio! ~singapore has got 4 million ppl, 2 million are girls. subtract 1 million who are old, there are still 1 million young ones. how can your grandson not find a gf?~
excerpt from the movie i do i do.

should i or should i not? if i go ahead, things may go wrong. i may be wrong. i'm not even sure. think it is better to hold back until i am.
i've changed. i've learnt to have confidence and courage. but did it come with immaturity? or is this the real me? to be stone or be fun yet immature?

procrastination is my game. slacking is a bane. 5 more weeks to ca. can i learn to balance n manage my time?

congrats to bang! one foot in already. the other foot just needs you not to screw up. of course u won't. after all the salsa training, your feet should be sure and steady. those were the days, when we were complaining. now you've left jasper, yau hong and i to whine amongst ourselves. all the best!!!! you're the man!

xingning left for melbourne today. have fun studying there! wish i could go overseas too. anyone wants to go europe with me after professional exams?

i'm lazy to update my blog. what reason is there for me to put in entries each day? i think i'll just write entries when i actually get about doing some work.

anyway latest things that i've done:
went to cambodia and back alive.
slacking around too much
going out too much. wild wild wet, fisherman's village, ocean's twelve, cosy bay. what next? new asia bar?
went for mandarin church service.
attended commissioning parade.

aim for the moon, fall among the stars.
i'll treat you if i ever see a shooting star again.

Thank you victor for organising such a successful bbq @ ecp! i'm sure everyone had loads of fun.
it was a good crowd of about fifty people where everyone let their hair down after weeks of studying for the cas.
i think after friday's bbq, we would have known a few more people in med fac. i for one now know who is meng chon and andy and teresa marie. it's amazing how med fac is so small yet we don't even know half of m1. i hope through all these activities all of us can get to know each other better.

when i reached there i was dismayed by the turn out. i thought oh no, it would be a failure cos i only saw like 6 people max at the pits with no sign of bbq preparation. good thing it turned out that the early birds were actually cycling or rollerblading along east coast. when i came back from renting my own pair of blades, the food were already sizzling on the pit and people were chit chatting and helping themselves to the food.

it's comforting to know that there is the fun side of medicine besides academic pursuits. exchanging of lame comments, laughing at the burnt food the chefs bbqed (i think cooking should be left to the celebrity chefs - mark and dehan), spilling of drinks on bags and banging people into lamp posts with legs spread open were a few highlights. of course there were the lovey dovey couples who fed each other food, whoa how sweet of them! i think medicine should form more couples now that we have our 2nd couple from medicine. it'd be good for our declining birthrate in s'pore.

ok that summarises the bbq @ ecp. do check out the photos taken. bbq

the next outing is on mon 6th dec @ sentosa. think there will be lots of m1 and m2s going. so see you there!

Dehan's Schedule for next 2 weeks:
Sun 5th Dec- checking out of pgp

Mon 6th Dec- Sentosa

Tue 7th Dec- 0700-0900 driving circuit
1230-1330 lunch with dean
1530 medical appt

Wed 8th Dec- 1000 medical appt/FRS
1200 cooking lesson
late afternoon/evening cambodia packing

Thu 9th Dec- Full day Anat tut with Prof Gopal
1800-2130 UCC ushering

Fri 10th Dec- Estimated late afternoon/evening cambodia briefing

Sat 11th Dec- FREE!
Sun 12th Dec- FREE!
Mon 13th Dec- 0830-1300 FRS presentation
Tue 14th Dec- Departure for Cambodia!
14th Dec-4th Jan Cambodia

Calling all friends! It would be good if i can meet up with you since i won't be around for xmas and the new year. i can't go for any parties or gatherings. so check my schedule and contact me soon!

Post CA1

Yay! it's finally over. 2 weeks of studying in the library and it's over! The exams didn't go too well but i'm just glad it's over. So now it's playing for a while and preparing for cambodia! Haven't had so much fun in a long time.
Right after exams, off we went to karaoke at partyworld. As sleazy a place as it can get, just reminds me of the malaysian hotel where we stayed during rugby tour where there were prostitutes and 'transies' hanging around in the dimly lit corners of the lobby. but it's the crowd that that we hang out with that counts right? getting all excited and crazy during the choruses with daniel was really fun. i think the best song rendition by us was the 'wayne yap, never give up!' song. it's so catchy and fun to see whiny wayne so pissed off. haha...

then it was the incredibles time! loved every moment of it! thought the pixar animators were great in giving each cartoon a unique character. ooooh... the hair looked so real too! the technology is really improving by leaps and bounds. i was really amused by all the weird objects elastigirl can transform herself into, esp when she became a boat with dash sprinting his ass off as the propeller. what a sight! i like dash's character best. loud, motor mouth, cool running style and ability to run on water made him so adorable! but i think the most shocking part was seeing the baby become evil! it's a demon baby! so young and it is able to change into a demon and a fireball? what bad influences it must have been exposed to.

anyway don't you agree the sheep in boundin' looks like middle sheep aka zhong yang?

i am going to abandon my com for the next 2 weeks cos i just realised that i need to complete a topic a day to barely finish studying for ca1. which is quite impossible considering that i'm really slow. so if you see me online tell me to get back to my books! all the best to the medics for the coming ca!!

bud>thanks bud! all the best for your a's too! what happened to your blog?
mandy>yay!!! saya tak cakap melayu. good!! we need to find more people! i think optimum number is 4.

a bientot dans deux semaines!

hey check out the links in the 'mes photos' section.
just uploaded a few.

oh get well soon rabblion!

anyone wants to go backpacking in europe next year?
i've to plan early cos i only have the 1st month as holiday. the 2 months before school starts it'll be attachments at hqmc.
we've to fit around the funny open book exam which is right smack in the middle of may. so anyone interested?
france and england will highly confirmed destinations. how about spain too?

think i'm getting my mood for studying back! Merci Dieu! although it's still quite slow. was very motivated to study, so when yahu hong suggested camping overnight at yih to study, i agreed immediately. somehow i wasn't sleepy when i was studying though there was a point when i felt really sian staring at the testis, scrotum and penis. yau hong on the other hand, kept dozing off, therefore we decided to sup at munchie monkey's.

my first time there and i'm amazed at the menu they serve. Related to the spageddies restaurant, it serves pasta, pizza, alochol and even escargot!!! i must try the escargot someday. ya so yau hong had to vienna's hotdog, while i was contented with my tuna and cheese foccacia. i would have very much preferred it to be mushroom and cheese foccacia, but tuna did just fine. the indian guy who served us looked really scary as he was quite big, had a beard(or moustache can't remember) and golden earrings. his voice was low and rough too, giving the impression of a gangster. in the end, he turned out to be quite friendly. when yau hong and i were brushing our teeth in the morning, he actually chatted with us. so one cannot judge someone too quickly!

we decided to take a hour nap and se lever at 4.15. but you know once we planted our heads on the sofa, it was over... the alarm couldn't wake us up. so we ended waking up 4 hours later and it was time to leave for lecture. what a night of studying!

word of advice: if you want to study at yih, make sure you bring more than a jacket. you need 2!!! wear pants if you can too cos they are out to freeZe you while you are mugging.

went to church today after absenting myself for months. it always feels good to be in the church. you'll feel calm, relaxed and your thoughts become clearer. however, i couldn't keep awake during the entire duration of the sermon. feel quite bad after. as usual, i don't know anybody in the church. so when my uncle talks to his many friends, i'd just stand in one corner or just let myself wander to look at the notice boards. danny's the only person i know there but he has his own group of youth fellowship friends so i'm often by myself. i'm thinking of finding another church. maybe i'll pop by to daniel's church soon since it's similar to my present conservative, fundamental one.

these days i'll reverting back to my introverted self. rugby changed me in the sense that i became louder and a little more 'wild'. now i'm inclined to just sit down at a table and not talk to my friends. i'll keep really quiet and just listen their crapping and jokes. of course i'll laugh along and comment here and there but i don't engage myself wholeheartedly in the conversation. another phase of life?

totally didn't do any work this weekend as usual. planned to finish tutorial and pbl but ended up sleeping the entire afternoon. very shiok! think i better get down to some work before je dors.

i think the best thing that happened today was the lunch treat from my brother. we lunched at an indonesian restaurant at bukit timah plaza which had a la carte buffet. the rendang, chilli sotong and fried ginger chicken were delicious! i think the best was the crispy golden chicken. it was so good that we ordered 3 baskets of it! i couldn't get enough of it. oh no i should have taken a photo of it!

my life needs some rejuvenation.

enculer! i just scratched my camera. there's a deep scratch on the front now. Salaud! L'oignon!

feeling damn tired after a slack session of soccer. my fitness doesn't even deserve to be called fitness. now i don't even feel like lifting my butt off the chair to go shower. my head feels tight, like someone is using a plastic bag trying to suffocate my brain. think a nice sleep will would cure this. but i can't. i know i must study but i just don't feel like it. i don't have any goals in life. i don't even see myself completing med school. did i make the right choice? even if i was wrong, i have no choice. unless i want to go db and carry sandbags.

i'm always procrastinating. i'm always complaining. whining seems like my past time. even i get tired of listening to my own complaints. give me or teach me how to find the solutions and i'll gladly stop! primary school was fine. secondary school was manageable. jc was problem ridden but i managed to squeeze through the narrow pores. will i be filtered at this stage? used to set goals like i want to get into ri, i want to get into rjc. in jc, it was kinda difficult to set a fixed goal as there are so many places to choose from. now it's even worse. where do i wanna go?

some people are blessed with beautiful brains. some beautiful faces. beautiful lives too.
my brain is ageing as fast as my face. my body is shifting to a lower gear too. how do i stop this ageing process? anti-oxidants?

now data takes 5 times as long to enter my hard disk. i may understand at the moment. but i'll forget soon after. my short term memory is failing too. i didn't use to forget friend's names. it's not long time friends whom i don't remember, it's the names of my recent friends that i sometimes can't even remember.

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sorry qingyuan. shall rectify it soon. took so long to upload the pictures yet it doesn't work. maybe i'll just boycott shutterfly and use yahoo photos instead. oh does anyone know how to decrease the megapixels of the pictures so that the file size aren't too big?

my new home is the library.
where i eat, sleep, play, enjoy, freeze and mug.

been playing around with fx-7. shall put up the pictures soon.
ok think i should give it a name soon. any good ones?

35% 41% 60% 39%
in order of the fas i've taken. failed 3/4. 2 anat and 1 biochem. what am i to do?

anyone has the entire season of the o.c. 1? to download it from bit torrent, it takes 1265 days. by the time that is finished ryan would have married marissa. and my hair would hopefully be a beautiful mess like sandy's.

Let me introduce to you my babe!


sleek eh? so i'll be putting up more pictures of school, friends and stuff!
do be part of my gallery.

once again... it's been a long time. blogging is so not part of my life anymore. but suddenly thought of it, so i shall post an entry. too much has happened to put down in words. don't have the energy to do so anyway. now in med sch and it's not easy. have always been doing last min work all my life and now found out that i'll be murdered by this old habit of mine. too much new info everyday and leaving everything to a later date has caused a long train of confusion and doubts. brain is working too slowly; can't ingest and digest quick enough. priorities are misplaced. wrong state of mind. play. a little is good. but very addictive like drugs. quitting causes withdrawal symptoms. distractions are everywhere. difficult to focus. being a stone is not a solution. it will still get attacked by agents like wind and rain and sun and chemicals. hurdles. more like mountains. unable to climb without training. crawling gets you nowhere. lethargy. inertia. sloth. excuses! training can't commence. breathlessness and fatigue overcoming. the peak is so far. the final test. dig deep! determination. perseverance. dilligence. consistency. balance. agility. not mere words. put them into action. show everyone. the shark is far but its speed is fast. imminent danger lurking. maintain safety distance rather than fight straight on. swim hard. swim fast. hurry before the train leaves! leave. leave. leave.

it's been more than a month since the last post! kinda lost the passion to do up my blog. getting tired of the design but too lazy to renovate the blog. now most of my thoughts are faithfully written in my ocs journal. part of the motivation to cont. writing in this journal must be the blown up picture of liv tyler which i've pasted on the front cover.

much has happened since section field camp. will not be able to raconte all of it. so i'll just update what has happened recently. got into med at nus. received my lsa (med) too. so together with my other successful friends, dick and han boon, i'll be reporting to nee soon camp tommorow where hq medical corp is located. sadly left my platoon mates at foxtrot wing. it was a very enriching experience which started off as i led the platoon as cpc. much has happened and we've survived the tough times. things are going to be tougher but i'm sure all of us will be able to survive. we have matured and soon, we'll become leaders in our own field. now that i won't be going through army life with you hope that we'll still meet up some day and you can update me with some happenings in foxtrot wing.

i've met really wonderful new friends at foxtrot wing, people like kent, johnson, zhenxian, daniel seng, jun bin, zhifa, samson and my buddy for 2 terms, galvin phua! these people are really fun to be with and they add to the vibrancy of the wing. of course there are those dislikable and 'wayang' ones whom i will not mention. hope you guys will contribute to better the wing and not to its downfall.

the last week i spent at foxtrot was one of the best. had lots of fun playing frisbee and helping out in tug-of-war. hope you guys do well at the ocs carnival! passed all my tests and survived the boring lectures. and it all culminated to the finale, school happy hour! free flow of beer, kahlua, whiskey and coke. partying, dancing, laughing our heads off during the games and when zhenxian was drunk. oh man... what an experience! it was my second time that i got so high in my life. i was high but responsible enough to control my drinking. i think the highlight for me would be my participation in the games.
my platoon mates forced me to take part since it was my last week and i, already high at that time, sportingly took part. in retrospect, if i wasn't high i doubt i would have participated. the participants all stood at front, with some anxiety in us, as we didn't know what to expect. "the participants are to blow a balloon and the one who blows the biggest one wins. however, it isn't any ordinary balloon.. they are to use condoms!" with that, a roar erupted in the crowd. i was stunned! i've never done this in my life! as the others blew with such enthusiasm and vigour, i blew it cautiously and hestitantly. the air kept escaping and the lubricant was disgusting on the lips. my condom inflated and deflated, just as unsure as i was. a few pops of the condoms confirmed the disqualification of a few of the participants. when the final countdown began, i concentrated and tried to blow with all my might.... and i emerged as 1 of the 2 winners. haha... i can inflate a big condom! i can say with pride that i'm a 'condom blower champion'! haha.. with that victory also came a borders voucher card. and so ended a fabulous week.

not sure what's in stored for us tomorrow. hope it'll be fun!

came back from section field camp yesterday and it totally sucks! it was the most xiong field camp i've had. the section training was ok, quite fun doing fire movement and quick attack. but it was the ex. greensleeves which totally killed us. it is a controlled navigation exercise( followed by an instructor) and we were supposed to find 4 day check pts and 3 night ones. the freaking SAW was pissing me off because it was too long, trapping me together with the long roots of trees. the signal set is freaking heavy and causes us to get stuck in overhanging branches. and it didn't help that we have an instructor whom my entire section dislikes. ok shall not elaborate on him. *unsafe* the freaking tekong forest has so many hidden ant nests which can be activated anytime we are not careful, causing 'ant rain' to pour on us. the spiders are everywhere and the weather is so hot! had to tahan my heat rash for 3 freaking days! the feeling totally sucks. imagine the tingling feeling between pain and itch. imagine a million ants crawling on your back just beneath your skin such that you can do anything to them. imagine pins and needles prickling you. imagine red bumps on your body so dense, you thought you were born with red toad skin. even now i'm trying my best to resist the itch so badly. good thing it's getting better.

not all was bad about field camp. my section is bonding pretty well, esp. after ex. tenderfoot( uncontrolled navigation exercise). we had lots of fun 'going to holland' (hor lan), bitching about people, scolding the navigator when we seem to be lost and laughing our heads off about stuff which happened along the way. in the end, we found all our checkpts and were the 3rd section to return back to harbouring base. most impt thing is we could have fun and yet still complete our mission unlike in the other ex. when we were kept in a stranglehold and still could not finish the chkpts.

i am not looking forward to the other field camps.

had a really memorable time the past week. i planned it so well that at the end of this block leave, i can sit down and say 'wow, what a great week!'
lost my touch on writing and describing in an interesting way. so i shouldn't start recounting my week lest i make it sound mundane. anyway, argentina shouldn't have lost to s.africa! the pumas just make the game so exciting, with so many last minute tackles and superb flair. they never give up! yes it has been an enjoyable s'pore sevens. can't wait for next year's to come. hopefully more ruggers will go! my dear j3s, forget about the ticket price and let us party at sevens next year!
going to bed now. all the best to all cadet trainees! may we survive the 10 months of shit and hell and emerge as respected officers.

yesterday was a disappointment! the sun was blazing down on our backs and i thought 'oh man, someone's going to faint in this heat during pop.' it was so hot that cat 2 came on and we could not go onto the parade square for our last rehearsal. finally after all the sharply executed 'henta-kakis', we moved to our form up point(FUP) all ready to march in proudly. exactly at that moment, dark billowing clouds galloped across to our location. lightning flashed like a magnificent fireworks display. it seemed like perfectly normal convectional rain, which usually is just a quick downpour. i assumed we only need wait for a while, after that we can surely resume the parade. however, after only 15 min of waiting, our csm told us to remove our rifle buckles and pile up the rifles. what the hell! after all the rehearsals, the parade will not go on? i was sorely disappointed. kianleong was too. how often do we get the chance to march in the company, giving commands proudly and confidently? we rehearsed so hard, getting f so many times by ssm, going for extra henta kaki drills because we can't mark time together and in the end, we didn't have the chance to throw our jockey caps. what a sad ending for our pop. the only good thing about being a prize winner is that we get to the front of the queue to take the fast craft. i heard that my buddy only left at 2100.

24km route march was surprisingly easy. i took all necessary precautions, having learnt my lesson after the 16km one. i wore tights, a clean set of long 4, flannalite as my belt (the buckle caused some abrasion) and taped my nipples. the result: i came out of the march unscathed, with absolutely no injuries! i dunno whether it's because our field pack were dummies, stuffed with only air filled ziplock bags, but i felt that it was really easy despite the longer distance. there was sufficient rest, there was food and i wasn't tired.

to the guys who have been saying that my ocs spot has been confirmed. that's totally not true. during the pc interview, my pc told the platoon best and i that we can keep our hopes alive but not too high. so that when we fall it won't be so painful. he said the past 3 company bests, 1 went to sispec, 1 as driver and 1 as storeman and he doesn't know why. anyway although i hate tekong which is so far away from my house, i don't mind sispec. so whether ocs, sispec or even mp. i'll just accept it.

enjoy this block leave all new privates!

things can only get better. somehow by fluke i've become company best! i, rec hong dehan, at one stage was on the verge of downgrading and heading towards the status of ooc, have become company best? that's sure a miracle. thank god for his blessings! truthfully, i don't see myself as best in the company. there are definitely much better candidates out there, i just see myself as having more luck.
there's a disappointment though. i failed my soc. going for the retest next tues. guess my upper body is too weak. i can do all the legs stuff, but swinging trainer is posing a big problem. i'm always trying many times until my skin peels. now i can only wait for my blisters to heal and try to learn all the different techniques people use. i must pass with flying colours! the rafflesian spirit will live on.
now's our last book out! next fri is pop! how time flies... we've almost completed everything. next week's just parade rehearsals and the 24 km route march. hopefully it'd not be as tiring as the 16 click one. must remember to wear tights, tape my nipples and lubricate my ass so as to prevent abrasion. wouldn't want to be marching like i've been analed during pass out parade. haha.

i'm officially passed my bmt. attained a gold for my ippt! never have i run sub 10 in my 2.4km, not even during rugby season. so getting sub 9.45 was totally unexpected, esp since i had a lot of phlegm that day and was still on antibiotics. i've made it through the only requirement to pass bmt so the others tests i can relax and not be worried. haha.. aren't you guys jealous? my soc test is next sat, failed it once during practice but i must pass the test next week.

last night we had the time of our lives. after finishing the live range in 1 and 1/2 days, we had the entire 1/2 a day to slack around and to clean our rifles. since we had nothing on the schedule, we were allowed to play anything we want. so a few of us went to play touch and i relived the good old touch days we ruggers used to have. though most of my platoon mates who played weren't ruggers, the game was still very fast paced and i got to say it was the most tiring thing in army! hahaha. woke up this morning with aches and yet the morning after my ippt or soc i did not have any aches. weird but true. come to think of it, hawk coy is quite welfare and i love it.

this morning my pc gave us our interview in our bunk and he did it in section level instead of one to one. he said that it was too formal and people were afraid to speak so he decided to do it in section level. i think it's more likely he's slack and doesn't want to waste time doing one by one. haha. (oops, pc better not read this) then i got my 1st good news of the day. i was platoon best. i'm happy with it but not overjoyed. getting back good results later would be the most important. so wish me luck and i hope i can get my second good news of the day.

Yay! I'm finally not going to get downgraded in bmt. i can still continue my bmt unless the cardiologist at the military medical institute says otherwise. he better not downgrade me or the 600 bucks spent to see a private specialist just to confirm i'm alright will just go down the drain. there goes ocs and all the vocations i've signed up for. i think navy is fun cos there are opportunities to visit many countries. but don't think my mum wants me to cos i'll be away for long periods. intelligence officer seems interesting too but the scope of what an io does is unknown. guess it's really mystery that is attracting me. oh well i shall take a step at a time. who knows i may not qualify for any of it?

results are due in less than a week's time. i so dont want to collect it. i just know there'll be disappointment although i hope for otherwise. best wishes to all you guys out there! i know the majority of you will be having smiles from one ear to the next.

on the verge of being downgraded but i still went ahead to apply for all the vocations, air force, navy, wso, naval offcer. it's better to sign up now than regret later and realised i've not been downgraded. so fri night, booked out, and went for free dinner and wso talk. sat morn went for wso/pilot check up. was quite surprised as i had failed my pilot com test but somehow they are still doing the pilot med check on me. which meant measuring arm length, thigh length, sitting height ( think i barely made it for this, too tall can't fit in cockpit). well pilot's out for me since i failed the com test. i think among all the people who went for the med check up, i had the most remarks written in my file. broken nose, fractured collar bone, asthma, mvp( mitral valve prolapse) what else? i think at this rate, the moment they see all these remarks, they'll just strike my name off their list. sigh... everything is according to god's will. if it's meant to be it's meant to be.

after the check up, the rest of the day was bad. wanted to go wind surfing but forgot to bring sun block. went all the way to east coast and couldn't surf cos they had some ntu open. all sails gone. alighted the bus and knocked my head on the ceiling. didn't see it cos the front shade of my cap blocked my view. knocked my head once more somewhere but can't remember. all these were enough to piss me off. everyone was still in camp. so got nobody to go out with. in the end wandered in orchard alone. went on an eating spree hoping to lift my spirits but ate the worst tako balls ever! the brand called wow tako at ps. sucks totally. which made me even more pissed. takopachi is still the best! my mood improved when i found a damn cheap adidas cap at og orchard point. then met my parents to eat seafood at long beach. food was good, night life and scenery at east coast even better. cool breeze, nice weather, people roller blading, tandem cycling. if i had a gf i wouldn't mind the both of us just roller blading down east coast or just enjoying a stroll by the beach absorbing the sights and sounds and the smells of bbq smoke. of course it's all just wishful thinking for now.

not bad. another week has passed and another long weekend has arrived. i believe it is the last long weekend as there are no more public holidays from now til pop day. btw to those civilians out there, pop means pass out parade. army is really about all the acronyms. some of the acronyms are really funny. take it from my platoon sergeant, during our last parade he said our batch was his first a level batch. before us were all poly batches. but there was one batch very special. they were phd intake. then he kena shocked, first time he heard got phd intake. after that he realised, phd means poly halfway dropout. wad a cock. yes my sergeants are all very nice people. esp one of them, the most civilised sergeant i've ever seen, also my section commander, sg desmond. he said he has never even uttered a word of vulgarity to a recruit and his aim is to keep it that way. he treats all of us very well, and spends the most time with us, sharing his stories, and one of his reasons for being so nice was that he had very nice sergeants during his bmt and sispec days. and he said that if he is able to influence batch after batch to be nice, the army will become a much better place. quite noble eh?

this week was quite siong. first day was ippt cat exercise. managed to get a silver. met all the gold requirements for static stations. but to get 9.44 for 2.4km to get gold, quite impossible considering even rugby days i've managed a sub 10. did a 10.41 on mon. but think i can shave off the min to get my gold! then circuits, weights and 3 sessions of soc! 2 of them one day after another. quite tiring and many had burst blisters on their hands due to swinging trailer and low rope. well that's it for the week. oh did i say i may be downgraded? if the mo sends the letter, i'll be downgraded and become the lackey of csm. doing all the shit stuff. and then i've to go for recourse. how shit can that be. imagine doing everything again. oh field camp coming soon too. hope it doesn't pour.

book out day! shiok. the feeling is really good. as the army song goes, 'no more soc, no ippt, no more sergeant tekan me, all the doo da day'. yes army cheers and songs are playing in my head repeatedly! i'm being brainwashed! one check one check one check one. kekanan lurus! and all the malay commands. life in there is very rush and we are really the lowest life form in the bmtc. my sergeants are strict but are all jokers, like hokkien ping, wont hesitate to use vulgarities. i tell you, army has really a lot of vulgarities. even high ranking officers also teach us all the acronyms for vulgarities. shit better not say too much about such stuff, later kena charged and i'm dead. my oc will just choke slam me.

i got the cough and stuffed nose in camp, green phlegm in additon to fever, so i went on attn b status for 2 days. didnt' go for route march today. felt quite bad that my platoon mates had to go through it and i didn't. oh and white horse preferred treatment is no longer practised is bull shit. platoon 4 has white horse and their platoon is the slackest. never gets punished at all, while the rest of us always kena. the worst is p01, always kena punished. pity them. oh btw, i'm in hawk coy. but i may be downgraded. so i dunno if i'll be transferred out. but i dont want to, cos i think my company is very good. and i want to try ocs. sigh... i can only hope for the best.

ps pardon my language as it has degraded drastically.

1 more day to soldierhood. how exciting. i've not gotten everything yet, although colin, weijia and i went to beach rd to get our army stuff. the lady there was very nice and friendly and she kept mentioning her goods are cheaper. a few steps after leaving her shop we got attacked by this small malay lady. "aiyo.. why buy so many things? the army will give you credit card to buy stuff. you get cheated already. come come aunty give you my name card." it was scary that they just surprise you and try to make friends with you so that you'll buy from their store. competition is that stiff. well i dont care i think i'll just go back to the same aunty. saves all the trouble.

going to ri later to play bball. and weijia's gonna show me his cutie eurasian judo friend. he kept mentioning it so why not check it out? haha. ok must buy lots of stuff later too, i haven't packed my bag but i intend to stay out late tonight! should i or should i not shave my head first? the thought of the shaver running through so many heads gives me the chills. who knows someone might have an infectious head disease? fifa time beckons! must finish my season! cya.

now i know what it' like to get high. your mind just goes into sort of a stupor. everything you see it's like slow-mo ala matrix. a totally light feeling in your head so it seems like your head is going to fly away from your body. you wanna talk nonsense. but i dont think i spoke lots of nonsense. i was still quite sober to hide the jack daniels from yk until chieh, too busy eating his prawns, let him drink from the bottle when he was drunk! drunk to the bone, that's yk. talking about jack daniels, jd with coke is so damn good. it's the best. it's smooth and not bitter. got to be my fav booze now.

i conclude two types of feelings one can feel when one is drunk. immense ecstacy or downright shit depressed. yk on that night experienced both. when he was drunk TWICE! total madness. all the pictures taken of him were so hilarious. when it's up online, i will place a link on my blog. haha.

yesterday,when we left the place in the morning and everyone most prob went back to sleep, i went home, showered and went to church. i spent the rest of the day wandering around like a zombie because i had probably 1 maybe 2 hours of sleep in the 36 hour period. ok guess i must be prepared for this if i can actually become a doc. 36 hour shifts. bleargh.

ce matin, je lui ai envoye d'une sms poetique. mais elle a juste repondu, 'nice.' c'est tout. elle aime la couleur rose! ma mere aime aussi rose. lendemain, j'acheterai un chemisier rose pour l'anniversaire de ma mere. c'est un secret. gardez-le bien. mon francais est terrible. j'ai passe une demi-heure juste pour faire ceci. et la phrase derniere, j'ai utilise altavista translation. je suis un porc paresseux. je veux acheter un trefle de quatre feuilles pour lui parce qu'elle a les examens de conduite et sat. acheter ou pas acheter?
desole, il y a beaucoup d'erreurs.

today's surfing is summed up in one word. shiok! the last time we are going to windsurfing before enlisting. after we enlist, we'll most prob be too busy or too tired to surf even when we book out. initially, there was hardly a breeze and rain started to fall. terrible day we thought. suddenly wind blew like a gale and i sailed far out almost near the ships. the wind was so strong it was difficult to control the sail and i had to lean quite far back. backbreaking and callus-causing but worth every bit of it. all of us made it back safely to shore too. a great improvement, think we are on the way to becoming pros.

countdown to bald head, freedom lost and new wife- my rifle :
4 days!
enlistment date: 14 jan
time: 1-130 pm
friends enlisting same time, hello we may be bunkmates.

since friday, i've been going to school. (sat and sun included!) that's how much i miss school you may think. no, it's because i've nothing to do! actually, i'm just waiting for someone to ask me out for a date. hahaha. just kidding. yesterday, dick and i spent the entire day at school. spent a few hours playing bball, working out, and a large part of the day stoning.we tried to follow gek's og, together with the crashers bang and jianyang, but somehow i felt damn extra. it isn't our orientation yet we're intruding. that's how i felt. good thing serena, shiwei, isaac yee and jervis bay came much later in the afternoon, and all of us just watched the j1s playing handball. actually we were just looking out for good looking girls la. hahaha. noticed a few but it was just glimpses. dunno where they went after. oh but thought this nanyang girl looked cute and she had a nice healthy tan. know where her og is and tziyang said that she was his neighbour. lucky bastard. too bad, dont think i'll be going to school these few days, esp if i pass my audition. really hope i do! must put on a cool and funky image now.

Bon Annee! Happy New Year!

May I survive bmt and get into ocs. May my family and friends be healthy, happy and safe always. May I get good grades for my A levels. May I get into medicine in nus. May there be world peace and stop this terrorism shit. oh no disease epidemic too. ok this is getting too optimistic. Oh 1 more, may i mature spiritually in God. ok my wishes in the new year. of course there is another wish which i shall not mention online. may it come true.

tmrw's surfing day again! hopefully i dont spend half the time swimming like the other time. oh before that, shall follow my bro to school. look around, work out, run, talk to friends then off to east coast. i'm the black man now. i will get blacker if i decide to meet the vj people at sentosa after surfing. ok shall zzzz now.

bonne nuit ma belle copine.

I'm a surfer dude! wind surfing is so damn fun! but gotta say i'm the least talented among the others. was the last to be able to do self rescue and i kept falling off in the first lesson. you yi is a natural at windsurfing. he just got on it and started to surf when we were still struggling to balance. after lunch and in the 2nd lesson, all of us got the hang of it and could balance really well. the thing is we could go out but we couldn't go back. our good ole funny instructor, robert, had to use the power boat to rescue some of us back. there was one time when the wind was so strong, i surfed really fast, and i felt the sense of satisfactio welling up within me. i guess that's what's going to get me addicted. need to practise more so that i can go further out to the sea where there's stronger wind though i need to learn to come back or my poor arms will die doing the butterfly stroke. guys, next friday is a date!

great weather yesterday. the sun was hot, roasting us til we're nice and crisp and dry, but relief came intermittently, which was well appreciated. large grey clouds covered the wide expanse of the sky, released their cooling, soothing droplets of honey and drifted away, allowing us to bake to a golden perfection. at last, we can feast on the baby back ribs of kevin kong.

miss monsoon season was kind to us as she refused to empty her load yesterday, allowing us to have an enjoyable time at sentosa. on a beautiful day like this and nobody brought a camera to capture the wonderful moments! sigh. what a pity. esp when dingyi and i volunteered to do what nobody dared to. we put our bodies at risk, in the hands of amateurs, so that they can fulfill their fantasies and derive pleasure from us. what a sacrifice! dingyi, we have survived the torturous times, and i'm glad to have known you. we can proudly say we are the sand buddies. we dared to be buried alive!!!!

volleyball, frisbee, soccer, american football, swimming, ogling. we did them all. what a wonderful day. and you can take what i say as that. there are no photos of evidence to show we are guilty of the above. case closed.

prom photos! the quality's not that good though cos the photos are scanned from the hard copy. the captions are not finished and i've more to upload!

wah damn sian. my life's sian. that's it. nothing much to blog these days. just been going out and working out in school. nothing interesting. but somehow i've been hanging a lot with my cousin yiling and ah kong these days. maybe cos i've been going to her house as my cousins from canada are staying there and we keep talking about kevin kong and their vj friends. got to know my first few vj friends from them too.

last night went with them to centro for the uberture.com inter-jc pageant event. got to say it was sucky! BIG TIME. made us wait for more than an hour outside then wait for another hour inside. and watching the damn sian pageant on the tv screen cos it was too freaking crowded in the relatively small place. incidentally, rj had no representative cos all of them didn't want to join, ok maybe that's why it's sian cos i've got nobody to support but that's not the only thing! most of the contestants cannot make it! either too short, or too gay, or act cool not cool. ok not like i'm the most good looking person, but the thing is, if these are the best from each jc, then it really is damn sad. i dont think that's the case. i guess the most good looking people just refuse to join.

anyway, last night stupid ah kong and my cousin kept trying to matchmake me to this girl. damn irritating. felt like killing them. ah kong, you good! all the girls you dont like and reject then pass to me is it? ass! after the event, we thought we'll have fun dancing but the music sucks! it was progressive trance and there was no variation, after a while, it began to feel damn sian. i dunno how people like such monotonous music. rnb is so much better! however, after drinking a little, and feeling a little high, we went to dance again. after all, didn't wanna waste money right? i spotted hamid and jerome and surya dancing up on the platform so i joined them and the others followed. we just danced and shouted and made a lot of noise. while dancing we could even see the beautiful view of the merlion from the window. this was just a short-lived fun. we went back to the comfy sofa, slacked a little and decided to leave, ending a crappy night. maybe it was just a lousy me on a lousy day.

ah kong! hope the sentosa outing is still on and can't wait for the boardsailing course on friday! going to sentosa for my cousin's wedding dinner now! yay!

Glitz. Lights. Glamour. What a starrry starry prom! Everyone looked fabulous! Never imagined it would turn out so well. People whom I couldn't recognise popped up everywhere. It was like, shit , you mean you were from school? i remembered watching on news which showed the tjc prom night, and i gotta say i was kinda worried when i saw how bad the people looked. Well... my worries were unfounded. The guys looked good, the girls even better! The entire night was a trigger happy affair. The hotel staff should have jolly well packed the food in tupperwares because the food did definitely go to waste. People only wanted to capture beautiful memories of their friends on camera. I mean, how often does one get to see the beautiful side of one's friends? The feast for the eyes surely did suppress the hungry stomach. Some people looked so good that i knew i just had to have a picture taken with them, albeit i don't know them. Well it was then or never, so just thicken the skin and ask!!! Fortunately, they were friendly enough not to reject my requests. Can't wait to see the photos!!!

Prom King: My dear charming friend, Tousif Kabir.
Prom Queen: My good ole' giantess, Poony aka Huiling

They definitely deserved it! Tousif had been dreaming of this day since the day he was nominated! There was never a time when we didn't talk about it. You kicked their asses big time bro! You should have seen him at work at post-prom! Charming all the girls so well, he just makes me jealous. haha. It's ok tou, i'll just pick from your scraps. haha.

Giantess, well, didn't actually talk about the possibility of being prom queen. In fact, she was so heck care that she said she was just going to wear her sec 4 prom dress. Or maybe her confidence of winning was just sky high, so she didn't have to bother about dressing up. haha. just kidding poon. There wasn't never a doubt that she wasn't going to be prom queen. So just grab your title and stop feeling embarassed about it giantess!

It isn't good to be sick on prom. I sounded so bad i thought i was a constipated kermit the frog. I could only laugh it off by saying 'what a sexy voice i have' to people i speak to. Often, I could barely hear myself. Coughing til my throat felt like popping right out. Should have just seen the doctor last week. Thought i could for once be a strong man and let my immune system fight the infection. Well, i just proved candice right, who always thinks i'm the weakest rugger ever. Saying i'm always getting injured and sick.
Someday, i'll prove her wrong!

2 years of jc is officially over. Last night was the last time i was going to see everyone together. Good friends and people whom you treasure, that's no problem, we can still meet up, though it'd not be as often as it would be like in school. The other great people whom i haven't gotten to know and the friends i'm not close to, thanks for making rjc such a vibrant and warm place. Hope to see all of you again! Maybe the councillors can hold a reunion like 10 years later! It'd be nice to meet up again. Good bye class of 2003, see you next year when the results are released.

SAT 2 today! slept at 1 last night, frantically trying to practise math and writing because i realised it's damn difficult! woke up today like i've left my brains behind. a walking zombie, that's what i was. first time taking it at st.francis methodist sch, so had to wake up real early. in the end, took a good little nap in their canteen. overall, it was ok la, but the invigilator is damn lousy, kept cheating us of our time. the ovals for shading is damn large too! waste a lot of time shading, so although when i practised at home i had enough time, today's sat was a frantic rush! screw off sat. no more exams for me in a long long time.

today was also the day of meeting people. the day started with meeting my ex pri schoolmate, craig. think my cousin was with him too, but i seldom see him so i'm not sure if it's him. the most pleasant surprise was seeing albert! my classmate who sat beside me in ri! a damn sleepy looking guy who's quite funny and loves basketball. remember he used to sleep nonstop in class, the energy must have been used to played basketball. saw him at st. francis with his gf. and i gotta say, your gf is quite cute! well done bert! haha. oh can you believe this? we still have each other's kipling monkey arms because we exchanged them in ri. it was damn amusing, 2 big guys taking out their pencil case on the bus and showing each other odd looking monkeys with arms not matching the colour of the body! oh well it was great chatting with him. bert we must go play tennis or bball sometime!others i saw were golden head jianwei, good looking you an and the bleached head ghost riding a bicycle in the rain, lennard!

and once again, went shopping with dong. ningyan and samuel kuek joined in too. went to look for earrings today. now deciding between 2. think i'm going to buy the cross one for prom and share the jewel stud one with tziyang. speaking of ty, he looks damn gay now! he went to pluck his eyebrows and they're quite thin now like a girls. he kept saying he's chio and wants to put on make up. well... because of that, i've decided, plucking my brows is out of the question for me. don't want to look like a transvestite. ok realised i've been blabbering a lot of crap today. what a lousy entry.

2 days to prom and i've lost my voice. well done. hope my doc can cure me quick! demain, je vais chez le medecin.

oh anyone wants to boardsurf aka windsurf? i want to sign up for the course at east coast but i need six people to start a new course, so far i've 3 including me. dick, dong and i. interested people please contact me asap! send me an sms.

oh for guys who still don't know what to wear for prom you can try checking out the gq website on the right.

Supposed to study in school after a bit of exercise. i know it's mad, 'a' levels over why the hell am i studying?!!! well kinda have sat 2 this sat, and my study plan got thrown out of the door the moment i saw weijia and the rest in the school gym. Did a little workout and played touch! kinda lousy today, felt damn slow, though i know i am slow. the only advantage i have is my long arms to touch people, that's about it. can't side step, ain't got no skill and definitely no speed. well guess i need to work out more, do a little hamstring weights, and hopefully become a little faster. that's what i'm going to do, work out with dong in school tmrw morn! haha, need to get rid of my belly to fit into my shirt too.

Talking about shirt, i finally bought my prom shirt and a tie to go with it! can't believe i paid fifty bucks for the tie though, so must make good use of it in the future. the colour of my shirt is.... haha, shan't say it now, see it at prom! but the colour of my tie is gold. i'm really afraid someone will have the same shirt as i do, this kind of things always happens to me. i mean wearing my nice retro shirt to yeow kuan's party and there had to be a blondie with the same shirt as i do! quite pissed off. i'm not sure if it's the same but a few people pointed it out to me saying that it's similar, just that his was short while mine was long sleeves. there better not be a smart ass who is going to wear my shirt, or i'll... i'll not talk to him for the rest of my life!

anyway, it was fun shopping today, dong, jun and i! the salesman was very helpful and even was our image consultant. kept giving us tips on what to wear and how we'll look. very pro! even told us which jc people had my shirt, mostly jjc and tjc, so rjc........ i better be the only one! at first dong was thinking of the typical rich british boy look with the vest and checked shirt, he'll definitle stand out cos nobody will wear that. Besides, he has the guai boyish sporty look. in the end, when we told the salesperson our theme, chicago, he chose a slick outfit for dong and dong immediately set his mind on it. finally bought the smooth chicago dancer outfit, all prepared to 'qie' zhihon! haha..

but dear bro was nice to tape 'are you hot?' for me, i want to see the hot eurasian girl from the zone 1 first episode! so going to watch it now. and hopefully get motivated to get sculpted bodies like the hot dudes!

Yeow kuan's party rocks man! Dunno what the others think but i think it's much better than the first one although there were fewer babes. When chieh dick kwek porsh and i reached there is was like a ghost town. abandoning the party crossed our minds but yk being our friend, we decided to still support him. sparse crowd as compared to the first. and along the way we met pat lee who mentioned that the place was surprisingly quiet so she left. One good thing came out of the smaller crowd though, it was not so squeezy and cramp and we didn't have to queue up for over an hour. At the beginning, i thought it was quite sian, i mean so few people?!!! When i first went in, less than one quarter of the floor had people dancing. Some seniors were pissed off that they left the place.
as more people filled the place and when the rnb music kept playing non stop the place started to rock! we could even go up on stage to dance! it was definitely good exercise dancing and shaking the booty.

i believed the lovey dovey couples benefitted from the 2 slow numbers too. esp. 'someone'. haha. kept dancing til like about 3 then i started to daze out. just sat at the sofa and stoned. only when there were the songs i liked i would go back and dance for a while. the routine of resting and dancing continued til 545 when the entire thing ended. i thought the techno music at the last part was quite funny. don't like techno, but the hand actions and chants the people do while dancing to it is damn funny. even joined in to do those hand actions, the pointing, the hand fighting sequences with the guys. had great fun!

Well yeow kuan made a loss from organising the party, but he wasn't too sore about it. (i hope) Just as he said before the event, he just wants his friends to enjoy themselves. Well done yk! As for partying, wouldn't mind another session of dancing til my knees wobble and ache.

Whoa first day after the exams ended. slept at 6 am this morning playing gunbound. those ass friends of mine, practically all of them are playing, jasper, kianleong, dong, dick and everyone else. well after their incessant bugging and intense discussions about the game, i've finally succumbed and started my own account. dunk01. the game is just like worms but with a lot more stuff which i still do not know. the only thing i know is shoot, move and try to kill your opponent. oh and when you first start, your rank is 'cute yellow chickee'. slowly progressing to hammers and axes, though i don't quite get the link between chicks and hammers. oh well, shall have to learn from my expert friends.

today is also the day i've become the rebel! was sleeping soundly when my mum woke me up at ten. can you believe it? waking me up at 10am when i slept at 6 am. kept bugging me to wake up so that i can go have my hair cut with my bro. well was thinking of doing up my hair, so managed to drag myself out of bed. And my 1st step to rebellion! dyeing my hair! do you know that to highlight your hair they make you wear a condom on your head? well i knew that today. only then do they painstakingly pluck out your hair from holes in the condom so that they can dye it. overall, i'm pleased with the outcome.

2nd step to the dumping of guai boy image. piercing of ears! yepz, went to do it today too. went kindas afraid that i'll turn really red (i turn red quite easily) and blood will squirt out at high pressure when it's pierced. well it turned out fine, just that my ear lobe is quite thick so i felt a little pain while yeow kuan felt none. quite satisfied too, can't wait to take out the stud and get a new one. well... because of the piercing of my ear, giantess is disowning me! although i don't remember myself ever 'belonging' to her. haha. oh she wore real large round earrings today. shall try wearing one next time just for fun too! =) 3rd step? well there isn;t a third step yet. why don't someone give me suggestions? oh but i do want to pluck my eyebrows because i've a unibrow!!!! yeowkuan said he wanted to do it too, so might go with him. any girl wants to join us ? haha.

well tommorow's night is yeowkuan's party so people see you at embassy! shall go play gunbound now. Ciao!

WOOHOO!!!! Au Revoir 'A' levels et salut tout le monde! Tu me manque ma jolie blog. J'avais retourne.
Felt wonderful playing touch after the last paper yesterday! Good bye unhealthy lifestyle and hello fun games play and exercise! The exams are over... the exams are over... the exams are over.. the exams are over! whoa can't believe it. 12 years of mainstream schooling is over! a whole new life lies ahead of me. always hear people say wait til you are out there, only then will you know how shit it is and how well school has been shielding us from harm. oh well the time has come.
Celebrated the end of exams with a good friendly competition of touch. After the stupendous rugby world cup finals, who doesn't want to play rugby and emulate what their favourite players do? As usual there were lots of arguments, laughter, bickering and the ever present swearing. but who cares? i reiterate and drive home the point. THE EXAMS ARE OVER! haha. ok i'm going mad. yes the highlight of the touch was definitely the superb skill shown by leon aka carlos spencer. a through the legs no look pass to timo who eventually scored the try. and there were of course comical moments like timo's 'very tricky' sexy pose fake, the sticking behind of one of his legs and a complementary spastic smile. oh what good memories of rugby!

Pictures from sentosa!

group photo without angela and dick.

bang and i prepared for wrestling.

posing with hot bikini babes!

had south zone awards ceremony today. nice seeing everyone again. seeing my ex-classmates and the other rj people whom i haven't seen cos of prelims. i know it was only a short while ago but when graduation day is on thurs and there is the possibility of not seeing them until maybe prom or ever again, it's great to treasure whatever time we've left together. took lots photos too, can't post any now cos it's not in digital form. i've to wait for yk to pass me the long overdue cd of the photos!

the ceremony was boring. i mean how exciting can the going through of 400 names be. i was only kept awake by yk, his antics and the diaoing of the sajc emcee. he deserves to be suan man, the way he pronounces words is irritating. cedar girls becomes saddle girls and agnes becomes acnes.

i think the highlight of the day was me approaching a girl whom i didn't know. i'm shocked by my guts today, even though i was only asking on behalf of my friend, it's still surprising cos i've never done it before. dunno what got into me today. first i asked her if she could take a photo with my friend. later on when we met her at the bus stop i asked for her name. whoa! that was so un- me. anyway my friend is cloud nine with both her name and her photo. but hey **** **** make up your mind! don't be a playboy!

oh must congratulate giantess for getting into the ulu pandan youth executive committee and getting the post of secretary! she didn't even need us to vote for her la. even if jun, yk, dong and i didn't vote for her she'll still get in cos she like got the second highest no. of votes. well done overgrown oafess!

shall leave other more interesting details at ulu pandan cc out cos people will kill me if i do!

yay! wonderful day at the beach! sun, babes and sea. just love the beach where we can play volleyball, touch rugby and sun tan. besides there are many eye candies. haha. of course there are damn sick sceneries where you wish you were blind. i mean which guy would walk in a g string on the beach showing his ass to everyone! damn sick! and his trunks is so thin you can see his 'turtle head'. argh! to think jasper called him a 'ya' (male prostitute) and he didn't even get angry. guess he really is one!
ya of course there are the babes too. and i had my face in one of the babe pictures which ghim took. ghim, you must put the pics on your yahoo account, i'll go there to download. And finally i'm going to get a tan. i'm red like a lobster now, slapped loads of body lotion just now. hopefully i won't peel but will become nice and tanned. jasper, looks like your tanning oil is going to work.
well shall not ramble on about sentosa. going to watch 'qian nu you hun' already.

Salut! I'm back, albeit only for a while. When I read the blogs of others, I feel deeply ashamed of my command of english. I envy how others can put their thoughts into words so clearly and interestingly. When I read my own, I myself get bored. It's no wonder that I get 25 consistently for my essays. Considering how much time I've to spend to structure a sentence just so that it sounds right. I can only feel less intelligent and more demoralised when the results are released next week. When others are counting how many A's they will be getting, and how sad they will be if they get a C, I'm counting the number of subjects I will not do too badly in.

Ok on to happier stuff. Pirates of the Caribbean is a damn cool movie! Orlando Bloom is gorgeous. Johnny Depp is zany. And Keira Knightly is beautiful. Love the way they speak too. Ok shall spare the details. If you want details, go to the blog of the more eloquent Dickson. Oh one thing I noticed, it's scary how keira resembles nathalie portman. It's almost as though they are twins! If you remember the servant of queen amidala, I always thought it was digitally imposed, with nathalie portman acting as 2 characters. It was actually keira knightly! ok why don't you be the judge?


It's irritating when people I meet keep mentioning, "eh, you are so white." "wah, ni wei shen me bian de na me bai?"
It's not like I want to be white. I want a dark tan too. So I'm expected to study out in the sun? Or should I resort to the UV machine which louis koo and britney spears use to get their artificial tan? Argh! Ok I'll try to balance exercise and study this time. Hopefully my body will be more obedient this time and not succumb to the deep slumber due to the fatigue from exercise. Besides ns is just round the corner. Need exercise in the mean time so that I won't die during training! 14 Jan! That's so soon. Too soon.

Hopefully this entry won't be the last.

Oh no only about a month left and i'm not even 1/4 through with my revision. Deja vu, a similar situation as last year seems to be happening. Asher, I'll have to abandon you to pia already. Desole. A bientot. Vous me manquez.
Dieu, aidez-moi sil vous plait.

For a small girl like you, you certainly have many big aspects. You have a big smile. You have a big heart. You make a big difference in other's lives. And you left with a big impact on everyone.

I couldn't believe it then. I'm forced to believe it now. I keep asking myself why? Why you? What went wrong? No logical answer could be found. I guess it will remain a mystery.

How could you bear to leave us behind? All of us. If not for yourself, at least for us. I think so much that I become angry with you. On second thoughts, I cannot bear to be angry with you. You are such an angel. An angel so pure and innocent. An angel so cheerful and bubbly with happiness so infectious. An angel so helpful and kind. An angel so diligent and motivating. So what's bad about you? Nothing, absolutely nothing.

I remember last year when we planned the Christmas party for the elderly. When we had so much fun shopping at the concourse, buying the santa suit, marbles, and you were so amused at every other gadget and toy. How cute and childish you were. At the Christmas party, I noticed how you interacted with the elderly. Though you couldn't understand what some of them were saying, your wide smile just bridged the gap between you and them.

When we studied for the SAT last december, you even laughed at the ear plugs I used to help me concentrate. You were such a great study partner. Very motivating and always encouraging me to study harder.

Two saturdays ago, and it seemed just like yesterday as i recall everything so vividly. You were there giving a talk about your planned trip to tibet. Then you sang 'wo niu' with huayu playing the piano. As usual, your voice was so beautiful and captivating. Hobbit even presented you with a red flower to match your red outfit. We went exploring fullerton. You accidentally broke Yanling's slippers and we just sat there fixing it together. You even said you weren't gonna buy m)phosis footwear if all were so fragile. :) Finally we each took complimentary fuji apples and enjoyed it as we watched the pianist playing.

Just last saturday, you came to find us after your buddy lunch. I felt really hyper that day and playfully used your balloon to hit all your heads. You tried to hit me back but kept missing. You joined tousif and i in looking out for chiobus and yandaos. There was the guy with sexy bike tights and the man with a real hairy back.

I'll always remember you, your laughter, your voice, your smile. If you were truly unhappy before, you should be happy where you are now.
"Blessed are they that dwell in thy house: they will be still praising thee. Selah." Psalm 84:4

I'll miss you.

"For thou hast delivered my soul from death, mine eyes from tears, and my feet from falling." Psalm 116:8

Stayed home all day! Handball during pe yesterday was really fun and i thought i felt like shit after that cos i wasn't fit, guess that wasn't the only reason. Then came 'the freezer' lt 2, shivered and trembled and hugged myself in attempt to stay warm during the entire torturous time of 2 hours in chem remedial. Finally declared myself stricken with fever after seeing the thermometer reading of 37.8 C. Hope i didn't infect all whom i had contact with in the canteen!
In the middle of the night, i felt like i was in a battle against my bed and myself. Turned and kicked and twisted and stretched as the discomfort ran through my insides. It didn't help that my brother was playing warcraft late into the night. Think i even sub consciously screamed at him to go to sleep.
The morning didn't start well too. Woke up with shouts from dad and mum telling me to get ready for school. (They never liked us to miss school) Though i felt better, thought i should stay in bed longer and maybe go to school later when i'm really feeling ok. The shouting frequency increased, so i decided to take my temp. Once again my all reliable thermometer read 37.8 C and i showed it to dad. To my disappointment and surprise, he told me to still go to school and if i felt worse later in the day then i should return. Feeling rather irritated by then, another round of beckoning resulted in me berating my parents for the lack of sympathy for a sick person and the lack of consideration for others. Going to school with a temp of 37.8 will only result in me being sent home so what for go to school in the first place! In the end, i was allowed to continue sleeping and start what was to be a slack day.
Watched 2fast 2furious. It was not bad i thought. Fast cars. Hot babes. Oh and the supermodel with the not too pretty face, devon aoki, didn't look that bad after all. Looked quite good in fact. The only productive i've done today was the packing of my files. Sigh. Ok hopefully i can something done after this entry.
Anyway is the tagboard server down?

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Drop dead. ( I am unable to comply.) T3 was a funny action movie! It goes to show how scriptwriters these days inject laughter into movies once thought to be serious and filled only with hardcore shooting, explosions and action. My first experience was watching the new james bond movie (forgot the title) where the entire movie was filled with funny and sometimes lame one liners. It was definitely a welcomed change from the norm. T3 is similar. With robots playing the lead roles, there were certainly no long thought provoking conversations but short and hilarious one liners suitable for slow witted shallow people like me. The action scenes were amazing, leaving you to think how much more nonsensical it can get, the plot with its loopholes also makes it seem quite far fetched. But who cares? With a hot babe like T-X and after a crap day at school, learning that I've got an e for chem, any funny movie is good. So spirits lifted, I went home not feeling sad and it was as though I had done superbly well for my common tests and i dont have to study anymore. So here i am not doing any work but adding an entry into my blog.

Oh realised that I seldom use my md anymore (it's just sitting snugly in my bag everyday), so I've decided to sell it! I bought it only in june last year and since it's seldom used and i'm a careful owner, it looks really brand new. The md player is accompanied by a blue case and discs. I may still have the box and warranty too. So anyone interested leave a msg on the tagboard. Please help me pass the message round. Thanks!



If anyone noticed, the md is propped up by my harry potter book!

Yay! I've got another kristen photo! haha.


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Finally finished harry potter! Just had to do it or I wont be able to start on my work so just spent the rest of wed to finish it. It was certainly fun reading about harry and his adventures again after an absence of 2 to 3 years? Of course there were the movies in between but somehow I felt the movies were not as nice as described in the book. Harry's experiences makes us relate to him well with topics such as friends, exams, teachers, family, bullies and even bgr. No wonder it's so popular and captivating. Wonderful to read about the twins and their endless pranks and all the spells, reading minds with Legilimens, making someone suffer in pain with 'Crucio' and seemingly easy but effective one ' Stupefy'. Someone died too in the story, and no thanks to timothy aka porn king with a mouth so big and foul and toad like similar to the bitch dolores umbridge, i had to know who died before even reaching that part. Ok shall not reveal much more of Book 5 just in case someone hasn't finished. Just have as much fun as I did. oh p.s. my church sort of bans harry potter cos it deals with wizardry and witches. anybody's church too?

You can learn the actual pronunciation of words found in harry potter.

Harry

Yay! Common tests over! Slacking now but mundane school routine will start all over again next week. :( Only 10 more weeks to prelims! Argh... so gonna die when I get back my results. Hope there isn't a need for steven chin to talk to me or my parents. Decided I have to mug everyday in school already. Need to catch up on my J1 work which I have been neglecting. Sigh... typical Sinagporean blog. Talking nothing about school work. Simply no life.
Oh to the people who have been asking for the periodic table of sex, the picture i have is what you see. There isn't an enlarged version so forget about it! haha.
One thing I learnt on Friday was that eyebrows though seemingly small in relation to the rest of the face, can certainly make a huge difference to how a person looks. Having a too arched one will make the person look too slutty, a too thin one can make the person look like an idiot and natural beauty(without plucking and trimming) is just as fine. Oh well I guess it depends on the person's face shape and structure. This is what I learnt spending an afternoon with my classmates. haha.. so... though my eyebrows seem thick and joined, i've decided not to take the risk lest the outcome will make me look gay!!!!

tired of studying this?

how about studying this instead?
oh well another sucky day. need more hope in life.

Haven't really much to say. Only the norm like how i've wasted yet another day, and i'm so going to die for common test. Oh there was one good thing today. The lunch buffet which eugene treated was damn good! Loved the soft shell crabs and the succulent bouncy sweet and sour prawns! It was good to see him again, but didn't really talk to him. He talked mostly to ningyan. Oh well, just found out that I can't link photos from yahoo photos to this blog. That explains all the crosses! To think i spent so much time linking them! Sigh... Guess will have to load the pics up to a website like amandy said. Ok i shall give it one last shot to see if it works.

Hot girls kissing!

Ok added a few more stuff on my blog today. Wasted bloody lots of time. Shall go to sleep now. Thanks Bang and Timo for your invitation, but I'm studying in school which is nearer to home than the libraries the both of you mentioned. Yes so right now I shall just stick to the accompany of the hardcore brothers in school. Hope not to waste too much time on a topic tmrw. Cya tmrw bros!

I need a study buddy!!! Someone who can motivate me when I get distracted. Anybody? I've less than 2 weeks left and I still can't study. I'm dead! Maybe I should stop going combined schools. Ok I think I will. I shall play one more match only. Yesterday's game was quite fun la. At least I know I'm not way lousier than my seniors in safsa. I still can drive them back and win a few balls. Maybe they were complacent too, seeing we were quite a screwed up team. I mean with forwards playing in our backs, which opponent wouldn't be? Those who were too scared to go down were whussies, letting the backs down, and causing team mates to be injured for nothing. Oh well but who really cares about combined schools? It quite a waste of time. Everyone's just aiming for the U-19 team at the end of the year.

Embassy 14 was ok, though I didn't enjoy myself at the start, it started to get better later into the night. My mum was surprising fine with me going. She said since it was once in a while it was fine and even gave me money for my taxi back. Drank my first tequila and thought it was ok only. $5 for a small shot certainly wasn't worth it and I thought it tasted like normal spirit. Nothing special but the salt lining the edge of cup. Didn't know I could order anything with my coupon. If Huilin had told me earlier, I would have ordered something special, like Bailey's Irish Cream which I so wanted to try or some cocktail. Oh well. The next time will have to be after A's, maybe post-prom party? It was quite interesting to see how guys use their dick to lead the way. Was dancing with kianleong, dickson, zhihon, sally and zhong yang when i noticed this group of guys ( i think ns boys) dancing round this trio of maybe j1 girls. When the girls moved they followed them. Just wanna try to take advantage of them. It didn't really bother me cos other groups of girls also had many guys surrounding them. But they kept pushing their way here and there and disturbing people dance as we had to make way for them. Anyway, danced til my knees were aching. Dunno how people can go clubbing so often, maybe they'll just get arthritis in the knees. And i certainly felt shit the whole of sunday. Felt really tired and lethargic. Woke up real early to go to church then slept the rest of the day. Didn't even study! So somebody please help me!! Study Buddy!!!





Yummy creamy bailey's!

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scared old clownfish who is way overprotective
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yay i'm nemo's overprotective father. maybe that's why i'm irritating, always nagging at people. and afraid of things going wrong.

Realised that making a deal with your mum can really make you study. Wanted to go for combined schools to get my colours. But my mum said that the finals was MY finals and i'm to concentrate on my studies and buck up. I knew I couldn't go through my school rugby without any achievements so I begged her and made a deal with her. That I'll do well in my common test. I was so desperate that I was tempted to say that if I didn't do well she could ban me from going out. That would really make me mug all day. Anyway went for combined schools training and it was quite slack. But injured my right ass cheek while decking on the hard ground twice. Swollen now. Then studied at Lucky PLaza macs with timo. Not bad I'm beginning to focus ok, but not studying fast enough. Not much time left. Sigh. Not a very interesting day. Guess the only fun things were learning how to fold stars from straws (thanks for teaching me bud!) and that top man has super sale! Up to 70% discount. Must chiong there tmrw to shop! =P

yesterday i went for my cmpb checkup and it wasn't the best experience one could have. at the gate, saw a soldier shouting at this guy. "still stand here for what? don't understand english is it?" i was a little shocked. realised the guy was my ri schoolmate, kaisheng. anyway the tone of the soldier was really bad when he spoke to me as well, i didn't bring my cmpb letter (which i didn't know i had to). "you were supposed to bring your letter. your questionnaire anyone can change name and ic no. and anyhow come in then i let just let them in is it?" ok it may be my fault, but his tone was really bad and i felt like giving him a tight slap. if not for the rifle he was holding, i would have. anyway i just stood my ground and retorted that i looked at the check list online last night and there was no mention of the letter. in the end, he let me enter. kaisheng who was on his way out, was also called back and permitted to go in. what a wonderful start to the day. later i discovered my blood pressure was on the high side of normal, so guess i have to watch my diet. explains why i turn red easily too, i guess. met this guy who studied in aust. without him, i may have been bored to death. it was interesting talking to him, but at the end of it, realised i didn't even know his name! haha. whoever you are, thanks for the company! and hope you won't have too many 'skinny fucks' in your platoon when you enter in october. check up went quite smoothly til the iq tests. it was damn difficult! geppers or smart people may think otherwise, but it reminded me of another SAT. sitting there for an excruciating 2 hours and doing the tests was something i hope not to relive. at the end of the entire thing, i learnt that i was in pes b because of my asthma, i could socialise if i wanted to, my blood pressure is quite high and i'm not smart. i hope my 2 and half years in ns won't just be meeting all the guai lan soldiers like the one at the gate.

went to sakae sushi heeren to eat with my eating buddies! i was famished and i think i ate more than 20 plates. jasper's gf must be thinking what a pig i am, eating non stop. haha. had lots of fun at sakae. didn't eat until i was really full and felt like puking at that time. it was only after we left the place and went to annex that the after effects appeared. all of us felt like shit! i felt like puking and it didn't help that i didn't know what to buy for my angel's birthday and i was really pissed off. then i came up with a new theory! that effects of eating too much is similar to effects of drinking too much. you'll feel like puking, you'll feel crazy, you'll feel high, drunk and irritable.
yummy! but couldn't find my favourite takoyaki and fried tofu.

ok bang taught me how to add pix yesterday. so i'm going to try it now. here goes nothing..

a picture of a cauliflower ear. Ear which due to trauma fills with blood.

this picture shows a ear which is worse than mine. i think. yes my ear definitely doesn't look half as ugly as his. anyway, i didn't have to go for the ear surgery. was all prepared lying on the operating theatre when the doctor came in and said that there was nothing to operate on. this once again shows my extraordinary healing powers not unlike wolverine. yes but my acute hearing prowess has sadly left me due to the recovery of my cauliflower ear. that doesn't mean so3kers or anyone should start talking behind my back!

Watched the pianist yesterday. Mixture of feelings overwhelmed me. Sadness. Pity. Anger. Shock. Relief. I felt sad for the polish jews, how they were treated like shit and getting killed according to the whims and fancies of the german ss. I pitied how the lead actor had to go thru so much to become thin and scrawny just for the show. I was angry and shocked at what the germans did. I felt relieved for the pianist when he finally could escape his predicament and get out of his misery when the russians came. How war sucks! ok wanted to write more but my mum is bugging me already. it's 910 now and my cmpb check-up is at 930. " think i can fly you there is it?" haha.. ok can't wait for the sushi buffet with jasper my food buddy and my classmates.

Je veux ecrire en francais mais j'avais oublie tout . Qu'est-ce que je faire? Je dois encore etudier la francais! Quand? Quand je suis libre.
Another crap day. Was suffering from a runny nose. Although I slept at 8.50 last night i still felt tired today. Went to school and slept in the canteen until James woke me up. Haven't talked to him in a while. Slept through the whole of physics tut too, it's no wonder my physics sucks! But felt better after that good nap. This is going to become another one of my mundane timetable as Jervis always says. Well I shall end today with GP common test sucks! Couldn't complete both papers. Should learn to think and orgainse my stuff quickly. Sigh... when will i learn to do that? Oh one more thing, I didn't have to do the surgery on my cauliflower ear because it seems to be much better. The doctor told me only when i was all prepared on the operating theatre. Ok must study for SAT now. PRIORITISE! ban myself from blogging until after SAT.

Slept really early last night and didn't do any work the entire weekend. Feel like a pig, a slimeball, just want to slithe and stroll through my entire life. After effects of finals? Maybe. Post-finals have always affected me in unpredictable ways. I may be up and going one year, and like a total cripple in another. We certainly didn't deserve to win the past 5 years, but sure we do this time. But God always allows things to happen for the good. So it maybe a good close relationship with my team mates. Who knows? 20, 30 years down we may still remain the best of friends. I'm sure we will. :) Ok enough of finals, need to get on with life.

How Yew Meng gave me an invitation to the U-20 combined schools right after the finals. I told myself and my parents that after season rugby will be out of my life. I will only study. I certainly didn't expect it, now my heart is itching to play again. My other team mates have all got their south zone colours either due to national team or combined schools, but some how or another, i've always missed the opportunity. I was either injured or chose to go on holiday in canada last june. I feel, without colours, i've nothing to prove or show what i've achieved in my 6 years of rugby. It's like i'm a wandering mediocre member who sits around, being the 28th member of the team, not contributing anything and still get a medal. No offence meant to the 28th member. You're still part of our team. Sigh... I'm in a quandrary. Follow my heart or be a good boy and listen to my mum. (By the way, I think she threw away my letter. Saw her reading it at the edge of my eyes, then this morning, found that it had disappeared from my table.) Lord, please give me strength to make a right decision quick.

Mum is reminding me that i've to leave soon. My ear operation is today at NUH day surgery. Removing the blood clot. Hopefully I'll not have a permanent cauliflower ear. Shall put up a cauliflower pic once i've learnt how to. Bang or someone teach me quick! Ok hope everything will go fine. And that dilligent spirit will infect me once again so that i won't feel so piggish and start on my huge pile of work accumulated over the weekend.

30 May 2003. The day my school rugby career comes to an end. An end which has got to be the most memorable and something which my team mates and i will surely talk about when our hair has thinned and our mass on our chests move down to our bellies. It was a result which was definitely not a true reflection of how my team played. In my 6 years of rugby, it's the first time ever that i've seen my team mates play so well and we really linked well both in forwards and in the backs. The forwards tackled hard and secured the ball, and the backs kicked well and passed excellently. I'm really PROUD of you guys! We trusted each other completely and we all went in the game with so much confidence and pride. I remember how in the past finals I would feel dismal and that it was all over for us when we were down. But not on friday. On friday, ACJC faced a team with so much confidence that they would have pissed in their pants and not have been able to get out of bed the next day. When they kicked their 2 penalties in and when we were down 3-13, we lifted ourselves up 10 notches and began what was to become a permanent camp in their 22. We became possessed men, and fatigue was definitely way back of our heads. True Rafflesian spirit was embodied in each one of us. We never gave up. Wave after wave we smashed towards their line. When we lost the scrum, justin would win it back and we attcked again. They tackled and dived so many times that i lost count of how many penalties we got. The stupid ref should have just given us the penalty try. In the end we finally managed to score but the conversion flew just inches wide. 11-13 and we lost they won. That's the bottomline but in our hearts we were the champions. We know it. Everyone there knew it. They were just lucky. They didn't deserve to win. We played as team never before but the better team doesn't always win. That's life.

Ningyan, Leon, Tziyang, Yeow Kuan, Lijing, Timothy, Lennard, Isaac, Zhi Hon, Raihan, Alvin, David, Kianleong, Justin, Dickson and Josiah, thanks for the superb experience in the final. It was a B-E-A-U-tiful game. I love you guys! Thanks also goes to the reserves for being there for us as a team.
RJC Rugby 2003 a team I'll never forget.

I'll miss you grandpa. Hope you're having a good time in heaven. Shall retype the entire thing again when I've the mood

fuck this blog!
Spent 45 min typing about what happened yesterday then with one click of the button everythin was gone! Fuck you!

Finally went to church today after skipping the last 2 weeks due to various reasons. Managed to drag myself out of bed, feeling sore after yesterday's physical game. The game was really messy and crappy. Wasn't the best performance from me too, learnt my lesson not to drink coffee and sleep at 3am the night before. We managed a 6-0 win in the end and a win is a win though much needs to be improved. Ya went to church feeling quite distracted actually, kept thinking about rugby, about how it would feel winning the gold and how i would really cry my eyes out if we win. The sweet feeling